Dillema

a choice
is a decision
you must make
everyday

some choices are easy
some are extremely hard
especially regarding
your brain and your heart

my heart really yearn for her smile
really wish for her victory
success and recognised by the world
in this one shot

but my heart also do not wish to part with her
as she might turn into someone unrecognised
my heart do not wish to see her tear
and my heart do not wish to let go

my brain really yearn for her victory
her success might bring much fortune
much opportunities
and much much more options

but my brain also do not wish to lose a great partner
a partner hold a vital role in my school
in near future and far future
and my brain do not wish to not seeing her

in this such a dillema
i confused
much much more confused
than before

but i'll decide
i'll support her anyway
if God wish us to part, then so be it
if Fate wish me to be alone take on more giants, then so be it

the most important for me
is her smile must not end
is her spirit must not die
and her capabilities must not be contained

P.S. GO!!!! and win!! my dearest...

Blue Bird

there once a bird
so vast and so immense
flaming eyes and burning feather
the holy phoenix is the name

i search for eternity
for possessing that bird
but no matter how much i exert
i can't reach it

in the end i give up
and losing hope
and a blue bird come to me
singing me to happiness

i realize that sometimes
what you want is not what you need
and the blue bird of happiness
is always in front of you, when you are ready

so why you need to spend much time
to find and seek the one you want
but in the you get none?
in time, the blue bird will find you

P.S. i hope i truly have found my blue bird, may yours also...

dancing in the rain

dancing in the rain
rain of cherry blossom
is something i can't give it to you
for now

but i can take you to that dance
in my dreams tonight
will you dance with me?
can i have this dance?

i dream of walking with you
in midst of fallen petals
hand in hand, eye to eye
just walking...

i dream of having holding on you
in the midst of fallen petals
to holding you toghtly as i never hold you
just holding you...

i dream of dancing with you
in the midts of fallen petals
dance to unknown music but ourselves
just dancing...

i will treasure that dream
even as i might forget other dreams
i will hold on that dreams
and hope it will come truth one day

P.S. one day... that's all i can say

its start with a click

it start with a click
our meets and our beginning
its wierd as it is
but thats the way it is

our meeting everyday
simple and easy
we expressing ourselves freely
without bound to rules and manner

when she is not there
it's feel so empty and void
but in just one simple text message
the world seems brigther

when the days getting longer
the more time we spend together
when the days grow older
the more hesitate to i to leave her

i want to support her the fullest i can be
i want to be with her the longest i can be
but what are we?
it bothers me so...

at last i realized
that i have fallen for her
fallen so deeply i don't realize
yes, i love her

and it's all start with a click
our meets and our beginning
its wierd as it is
but thats the way it is

P.S. it wierd and funny when you meet someone, and the funnier to see what you both gonna be

am i a failure?

am i a failure?
i often asked that question nowadays
am i a failure?
why didn't i have an exact answer?

i failed to be a good teacher
i failed!
i failed!
i failed...

no wonder... they become astray
no wonder... they rejects my presence
no wonder... they lost
no wonder... everybody give up on me

am i a failure?
GOD!
am i truly crafted to be failed
or you wish to mold me harder?

14th march 2009

14th march of 2009
together with
2nd april of 2006
is two dates i'll never forget

it's a day i lost
well, i thought i lost it
it's a day i lose
well, i thought i lose it

anyway,
a no answer is already predicted
planned and prepared
still, i found it shattered my heart nonetheless

but i must not dwell to much on sorrow and sadness
loneliness and despair
i still have so many things
so so so so many things

and, what's the point being sad
being angry, or even being desperate
it won't bring any changes anyway
it won't bring any changing i wish for

so, let's rebound
and land on both legs
and ready to rumble and rush
to the top of my prime


P.S. well, i'll never forget 14 march of 2009, one of the longest day in my entire life, don't you agree yuanna-hime?

confusion

deal with it when it come...
a sound strategy
but it was not that soundful
when the time come

when i see you
my heart skip a beat
i know and i already prepared
but where my preparation go?

i am confused
what face should i use
what smile should i put
what words should i said

GOD!
if you want to make me strong
that is the best moment!
the best!

where are my paths
which i have thinking so many days and nights?
where are my resolution
which i have prepared so many time and plane?

the answer...
i don't even know
i don't even dare to ask
and i don't know wht i don't know and dare to...


P.S. the time has come, why i want to turn back time now

the new breed of madness

the new breed of madness have born
the new breed of super team
the new breed to change the oldies
the new breed to create unlimited future

whenever they are in the era
when in my first of all
when in hime's second sparks
even in third teddy bear's network

they all
are CRAZY
MADNESS
INSANE

P.S. May EC will always be greatest in team, and be MAD at all time!

the first taste of victory

your work have bore fruit
the fruit you all have waiting for so long
the fruit so sweet that to die for
the fruit called VICTORY

that fruit won't last long
too bad...
that fruit won't last long
so taste its sweetness before it's gone

defend a victory is way harder than achieve it
you work have just re-begun...
more and more challanges and difficulties will come at you
prepare at all time!!!

P.S. Kridabeksa, the black dancer!!! FIRST VICTORY ATTAINED!!!

sudden visit, unexpected visit

my day was tiring
and i was weak
so tired of everything
feel too lazy to continue

but in the end of that day
a sudden and unexpected visit
a very very unexpected visit
which bring me back to my feet

thanks children
for your courage and blaster
have brought me back from misery
called the weakness and untastely heat

P.S. thank ananda, alief, sani, rachman and nunik, for visiting your teacher, bener2 gak nyangka lo. terharu wak

Tired

i'm so tired
many things to plan
many many things to do
more and more many things to think

i'm truly so tired...
so tired to the point of boredom
laziness to continue my fortitude
sloth to even move one lid

God, give me strength and spirit
the fortitude to do the fundamentums
God, give me strength and spirit
the joy of love my job more than ever

P.S. indeed the path of my chosen is truly hard... can i stay true to the path i create myself, or be fallen in the middle of the road?