confusion

deal with it when it come...
a sound strategy
but it was not that soundful
when the time come

when i see you
my heart skip a beat
i know and i already prepared
but where my preparation go?

i am confused
what face should i use
what smile should i put
what words should i said

GOD!
if you want to make me strong
that is the best moment!
the best!

where are my paths
which i have thinking so many days and nights?
where are my resolution
which i have prepared so many time and plane?

the answer...
i don't even know
i don't even dare to ask
and i don't know wht i don't know and dare to...


P.S. the time has come, why i want to turn back time now