path's divergence

my path are clear
and obscure at the same time
my path are clear?
or obscure? i don't know

every paths have their own strengths
every paths have their own weaknesses
every paths have their own opportunities
every paths have their own threats

i am in the path's divergence
which path should i take
My Lord, Jesus Christ
help me and guide me

should i stick to original plan
crafting my future by my original plan
wait for opportunities to rise
to bring me and her to new height?

or should i be vigilantes
and craft everything from zero
making my own home early
with many difficulties ahead?

should i change my job to a better payed
and support us as a strong pillar
and missing my teaching days
with jealousy seeing my old school?

should i ask my parents for aid
to creating my house earlier
with facing their own mind
and chances being rejected totally?

should i move
to another place
where i begin everything from nothing
hope for the best God provide?

should i ask for my employer's aid
by asking rewards for my dedication
with chances they will put me back at school
or it might another day to paradise?

God, i don't know
please guide me
guide us
for we are lost without You