my wishes of the year

this year are different from other year
the previous year seems so childish for me now
all my aspirations seems useless and fruitless
i have now seen myself in different glasses

for me in the past, my own enjoyment is my top priority
for now, it's seems create my own egoism
nurture my own selfishness
and i do hate me sometime because of it

for me in the past, achieving the best grade is my dreams
but after i achieve it, i can see that it doesn't bring much
it's your work that matter
it's your fruits of labor that make i satisfied

for me in the past, gathering fortune and money seems tempting
but for me now, after seeing ow ugly someone who lust on money
i put money behind all other important matters
i believe God will not let me suffer if i keep working

i am now aspire only to be a good man
a good husband to whoever my future wife will be
a good father to whoever my children will be
a good man for my society and God's eye

i am now aspire to be a good teacher
not faltered by economic temptation
not weakened because of lost of power
not downed beacuse of failures

i am now aspire to be mature
and forget my childish behaviours
i am now aspire to be man to looked up to
not because of everything but myself as channel of God

and finally, i also have found the woman i admire
i only hope that i am worthy of her
and i hope God truly see her as my equal
as i never feel this feeling with other.

this is the end of my little prayer
in the name of the Father
the Son and the Holy Spirit
Amen...

P.S. hope God grant my aspiration and my future, i give all of mine to your bidding and use me as you wish to bring your glory through me. and for my last wish, if you really not see it with your plan, i shall comply then...