i wish i died yesterday

i wish i died yeasterday

yesterday and today
only 24 hour apart
only one cycle of earth
only 1 day

yesterday i feel hope
yesterday i feel i could do anything
yesterday i enjoy my live
yesterday i anticipated my future with smile

but today, OF ALL DAY!

today, i feel despair
today, i feel i can't do a single thing right
today, i hate my live
today, i feel my future is dead

how could everything change in one day?
am i that fragile? am i that pathetic?
perhaps... perhaps...
i am fragile, stupid, pathetic, useless

OF ALL DAY!!!!!!!!
why today
i hate myself more now
i do not with for myself anymore
i hate every breath i drew
why i still alive?
oh GOD, just take my lives away
i feel i can't do anything again
not after such pain
a pain that i prepared but never expecting
a pain that i always aware but never expierancing

it's too hurt
way too hurt
i can't bear to see, if it's meaning to see her farewell
i can't bear to hear, if it's meaning to hear her goodbye
i can't bear to feel, if it's meaning a big hole in heart

i loved singing, but i feel numb
i loved acting, but i feel blank
i loved teaching, but i feel dumb
i loved ...., but i feel none

i wish i was died yesterday
when i still have hope
when i still have future
when i still have spirit

now
i just a body without soul
half of my soul already gone
gone......

IT'S GONE DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!
admit it yourself
you prick in cow shit
you pathetic useless piece of dirt

it's gone
it's gone
it's gone
it's gone
it's gone
it's gone
it's gone
it's gone
it's gone
it's gone
it's gone
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it's gone

man... i wish i died yesterday