sun will come

storm brew in distance
heavy rain on our head
hard water pierce our skin
thunder and lightning play above us

black sky rumbling like angry sea
wind blow strong like a mad
earth cries, beast howl, human cowers
all hides in fear, waiting them to pass

but no matter how terrible the weather
Sun will come, rise and shine
calming us with his graceful light
warming us from inside

no matter how hard the situation
things will get better
calming our soul and warming our heart
because we know, God is here for us

how i want to be with you now

how i want to be with you now
to calm you and ease your stress
to caress your silky hair
to make you sure everything's okay

how i want to be with you
to be a shoulder for you to lean and cry
to be an ear for you to tell your agony
to make you feel at peace

how i want to be with you
now...
but what i can do now
is just pray for you

May God make you strong
May God make you at peace
how i want to be with you
God, make me there, to my self

fleeting time

it just a moment
just 3 hours
only a small time gap
just a fleeting time

but along the time
along that short time
my mind fly to you all the time
and pray for that fleeting time to run faster

i longed to chat with you
longed to hear your word
miss you all the time
and wish i weren't here but be with you

but be patient
it's just a moment
a small gap
just a fleeting time

once its over
i will fly to you again
just to be with you
just with you

sand....

sand
there are everywhere
under your feet
spread to horizon

uncountable
unmeasurable
unnoticed
unseen

they are not salt
who are useful
and able to spread taste
to any food

they are not light
who are useful
and able to shine through
any shadow and darkness

but its just sand
a wide sand
silent sand
just a sand

but sand with water could hold strong
as strong to create sky scraper
but sand with water could hold tight
as tight as mud on our leg

so sand
like human
they are a lot
but stick them together and they are strong

brand new day

yesterday is yesterday
what happen yesterday is shaping us today
and what happen today will shaped us tomorrow
all we can do is move on

yesterday we are fighting for the first time
we both are at fault
i am too selfish
you are too moody

but as old saying
what didn't destroy a couple
will make the couple stronger
reconcile with you make me love you more

but today is a new day
let us face it together with a smile
although the sky look nasty
but with you, we will run!

May God guide us
through the path He planned
hold our hands together
and bring us to a bright place

how can it happen?

how can it happened?
i don't really comprehend
my mind in tornado
i can't think clearly

one moment everything was perfect
one moment all seems alright
but with one ripple, just one
all changed...

i wish i could turn back time
to see what i did to create this
my mind can't think straight
my heart howl and ache

is this my mistake?
if it is, i apologized
i couldn't take back my words
but show me how i can mend it

i know i am not yet worthy
i have low self-confidence
i even can't ride a thing
and rely on you to take me everywhere

its okay you mad at me
but please don't torture me
tell me the reason
and i'll find a way to mend it

you are the best thing that even happened in my life
i don't want to lose it for even a second
i already hurt too much
i can't take another torture

God, please tell me what should i do
i am blind and deaf
i am unable to do anything
i am lost, guide me, guide me back to light

reality of dream

reality is harsh
dream are beautiful
most people who have harsh reality
runaway to dream where they can relax

me?
i have a dream like reality
a dream who is more beautiful than any dreams
a dream who transcend into my reality

she has become my dream and reality
my life have have transform to a place i never imagine
no longer dull desert or boring lifestyle
my sky fill with color and flowers fill the horizon

she is my dream
she is my reality
she is both my dream and reality
and thus, she is my life

a bad start?

i wish for 10 slides consecutively without failed
i reach 7 slides not consecutively

is this a bad start?
God.... I can't do this

but you make me try for it
me in the past wouldn't even try

you make me pass 7 slide
me in the past wouldn't move even a bit

you make me pass all of it without visible harms
me in the past would fall in the instance

is it a bad start?
at least i achieve something i didn't dare to even dream of

for me...
it is a good start

You are my miracle

i Believe in God
i Believe in His mercy and greatness
But like Thomas, the apostle
i am a skeptical believer

until i am myself felt God's Hand
interfere with my life
once when i was called to be His son
2nd when i found my self

You are my miracles
a woman sent by God just for me
and as i am
the only one created just for you

being my miracles
i will cherish you with all of me
i might have nothing to give to you
but i will give all i have

i don't care what were you
what have you done
what i know now is you are a star in my life
and i love you more than i can write

i hope i could be your miracle
to bring you to light
i hope i can shield you from heat and cold
i hope i could be a man worthy for your love

i might not always by your side
to calm you when you afraid
to ease you stress or pain
but i will always close to you

May God show us the way
May God always watch over us
May God always give us aid
This is Our Prayer

its nerve wrecking

last night was
nerve wrecking
doki doki time
anxiety and excitement into one

i hope you feel the same
because i fear of their response
i afraid they wont like you
i don't want to think what should i do if that happened

but my fear is baseless
it looks fine
you look charming as usual
i shouldn't fear

both of them give us lotsa advice
so it's our end to keep up with their expectation
but with you by my side
i don't thinks its a matter at all

thanks for calming my soul

my soul easy to stir
a drop can turn into tornado
inside my soul

i feel anxiety all the time
i feel worried easily
i have negative thinking

i realize that
and i sad because of that
but no more

i have God to help me
ease my anxiety
erase my worried

and i have my queen
who be there to make me sure
to make me feel i can reach anything

thanks God
for letting me have my queen
and thanks Regina, my Beloved Queen

what is this anxiety

what is this anxiety i fell?
what is it?
since last night this feeling haunt me
like a large shadow chasing after my steps

when i want to fall deeper into love
my mind told me to stop
"do you really want to get hurt once more?"
"you can't survive, you won't survive"

i worried
i want to fall immensely in love
to give my whole self
but i also realize, i can't take another destroy

my heart already in tattered
broken like glass
i only managed to assemble by glue
its still breakable

so what is this anxiety i feel
do i feel if i give myself to her
i will be dissapointed?
do i don't trust her completely?

my other mind told me to let time decide
but i afraid time will betray me
time make my love deeper
when i reach the point of no return, time betray me

by day... by hour
by minutes... by seconds
my love grow
without me realizing

am i afraid?

but this morning
my anxiety defeated by my worries
I'm to worried for her to feel this anxiety
in the end, i do love her more that my anxiety

whatever happens in the future
i try not to think about it
if i must destroyed for the third time
so be it

what i want more now is to be with her
to give my whole self to her
try to be the best for her
and being someone worth of her

i will let God and time to decide
may God have mercy on us
i don't know Your plan
but i believe all your plans have happy ending

waiting

i hate waiting
especially waiting for someone i love
the time stretch to unbelievable elasticity

but when they finally come
do i feel tired, angry?
no, she is worth waiting for

my world

it's funny when someone
someone stranger at first
become the world now
it's funny

you are my sun
the one who brighten my day
bring spirit to my life
and cultivate energy into me

you are my rain
the one who wash all my worries
bring cool to my heated mind
and sprinkle joy to my stress

you are my rainbow
the one who make my life colorful
bring excitement to my dull life
and sparks to my my own eyes

you are my star
the one who calm my soul
bring soothing and make me relax
to be my own self with you

you are my world
you are my universe
and i Thank God for that
for letting me to have you as my queen

Time

Time, please run faster
when she's not here
you walk so slow when she's not here
1 seconds seems like a minute

time, please stop
when i'm with her
you run too fast when she's with me
1 hours seems like a minute

Mea Regina

from the beginning i know you
i know you are attractive to me
attract me in more than one way
till now you are my queen

when i awake i think about you
when i work my soul fly to see you
when i relax i wonder what are you doing
when i sleep i dreams about you

not a moment pass that i don't longed to hear your laugh
not a prayer pass that i don't remember you
how much i longed to see you
or just to speak with you

how much i want to achieve with you
how long the list i want to do with you
i prefer to spend time with you
don't want to throw my time alone anymore

Dear God, thanks for letting me
to encounter her
to walk to the mist of future
to see the beautiful soul before me

Please God, hold both our hands
guide me and her towards your Plan
i give all my hopes to You to guide
may Your name be glorified by this

i walk into the mist anyway

in the end i walk into the mist anyway
conflicting with myself
whether to walk away or walk inside
and i walk into the mist anyway

inside the mist, it's so white
i'm blind
no longer see my hand, my feet
my path back or my path forth

inside the mist, it's so white
i'm deaf
no longer hear my own voice, my breath
my steps in silent inside that mist

i might fall, i might lost
i might run back, i might pass through the mist
whatever happened... happen by Your plan
i just ask for 1 thing, when i fall, help me on my feet again

walking into mist

The mist is thick
i might stumble inside
i might also see the sunlight in the horizon
i might also lost in mist and find me back to square one

whatever i will face inside the mist
i will walk anyway...
Dear God, guide my way
i am blind without you

God, Must I?

must i?
must I?
should i?
should I?

man....
this is nerve wrecking
is this a test?
Dear Father in Heaven

What are Your plans?

what are Your plan
i can't comprehend at all
you play me and my world
at Your whim

is it is truly my self?
or it just a mirage of obscure truth
if it is....
guide me, guide me to find my self

a tiny drop of joy

in the vast and black sea
unknown to light
nor to wind
stand still in the shadow of time

a drop from unknown sky fall in
a drop of a fairy
known as joy
to bring light and wind to the sea

the black sea is now no longer black
and the air feel soft and sweet
all because a drop of a fairy
but still it's a drop

when it's rain
then i know
the smudge and mist will clear out
now i only see a drop

do i know when then rain will fall?
how wish i know the answer
longed for blissful rain of joy
to wash all my anxiety and worried

dull days

I'm so tired being here
travel this life alone...
walk to same road everyday
sit alone on the corner of the street

how long i wish for a change
a change of those of the past
when i have wings
and fly wherever i want

such dull days
tiring my body and my soul
i hope today will change for me
what changes do i expect?

for one still clinging to the past such as me?
am i expecting future with giddiness of a child?
or glance at future possibilities with utmost prejudice?
i don't know, when i know... i'll know

when a man loves a woman

When a man loves a woman
Can't keep his mind on nothing else
He'd trade the world
For a good thing he's found.
If she is bad, he can't see it
She can do no wrong
Turn his back on his best friend
If he puts her down.

When a man loves a woman
Spend his very last dime
Trying to hold on to what he needs
He'd give up all his comforts
And sleep out in the rain
If she said it ought to be...

When a man loves a woman
Spend his very last dime
Trying to hold on to what he needs
He'd give up all his comforts
Sleep out in the rain
If she said it ought to be...

taken from percy sledge / gregorian song

VbCrLf, my pride and beloved children

today, 10 of 10 of 10
VbCrLf, a team i considered my children
the pride of my work
disband to create another team

this is my tribute to you all
for being there always
to learn everything you can
and for being a team that i proud of

Galang NRA, your name so long i don't quite remember
you are the leader of this team
why, i forget at first
but you have grow into quite a leader

my advice to you
always at constant vigilance
you will be faced with the world
all your decision will decide not yours but all teams' fate

be always knowing your weakness and your strength
know your teammates' weaknesses and strengths
learn all opportunity and threats
and climb to a level you never see

Putri Wulandari, a strong figure of mature lady
you are the 'mother' figure of the team
may you realize or not
many of team member relies on you

my advice to you
be always ready to grasp any condition
adapt to them quickly and judge what you must do
you may face difficulties, but i believe you can pass through everything

learn off your teammates personality
support them to walk together to higher plane
stop them if the stray away
and be ready to control their madness attitude without losing your sanity

Billy Junaedi, a strong and self-motivator
your are life of the team
the one bring the team to higher spirit
the spirit of never give up

my advice to you,
you are emotionally weakest
don't lose to your own temper
temperance is the mother of destruction after all

your have the potential to be an amazing IT practitioner
be friendly and don't be easy to be lit by anger
sometimes it just a play between friend
don't considered it so serious

Bagus Iman, the natural motivator
you are new in the team
but you create a new color
the color of fun spirited

my advice to you,
know your time
when to study and when to NOT study
don't always mixed them together

a mature world don't tolerate childish behavior as much as i do
but stay true to your self
you have a beautiful soul, don't lose it
so learn to control the time, and the time will be yours to command

Nurharsima, the child of the team
the mood of all team
all begin and ended with you
the breath of life to the rest

my advice to you,
learn to control your own mood
don't be defeated by yourself
since you are strong

when you learn to control yourself
control other with be cinch for you
a talented natural leader as yourself
a grand future i foresee for you, grab it by your own hand

Agatha Isra' Bayu, the weakest link of the team
but nonetheless a link that as important as everyone else
a rose in the middle of code desert
an inspirational gifted

my advice to you,
learn to prioritize which is good for you
since your 'baka'-ness is quite hard to overcome
learn which path is good for your own self

i can only pray for your succeed
by always happy whatever happen
don't your your cool and smile
and ready to face any ordeal prepared along the harsh road

Fredian Simanjuntak, the talented mind
one of the most beautiful brain i ever found
you grasp fast and apply faster
the world of knowledge call for your name

my advice to you,
know your place and always climb higher
you have potential to reach the tops
never stop before you reach there

never satisfied with what you know now
you are fools before your learn something new every day
be the lord of the world of knowledge
don't fear, you can and you shall

Rochmat Hidayattullah, a cloud bound by nothing
you are a problematic kid of the bunch
come and go whenever you please
but i see great potential in you

my advice to you,
try not to play all the time
and chase the knowledge to the sky
you can fly if you want to

fly and fly further than you imagine
and see for yourself, what is the view when you fly
the ecstasy of learning
but beware not to fall down and ready to rise again if you fall

Ade Wati, the youngest member in the team
you are too reserved for your own good
learn to love yourself and love the knowledge
then the knowledge will love you back

my advice to you,
don't hide from knowledge
since knowledge will hide for you
chase them and make them yours

step forward to the light
and see the light and all its glory
learn to run, jump and fly higher
and the world will smile back to you

that's all i can pray for you
may you all will surpass me in every corner of the world
that will be my true happiness
and my pride

missing something?

hmm, i wonder
do i miss something?

looking for something
a hole in my heart

a small hole
but a hole nonetheless

just a little hole
but still i notice it

but what?
do i know it?

or i don't to admit?
i wonder

God, show me a path
what must i do?

i wonder, is this a way i must take?
or this is just a scrape of bigger road?

but now, i do missing something
do i really miss her that much?

i wonder
God, please calm my soul...

do i regret?

after all this time
i try to forget
all the beautiful memories
do i regret now?

what is this feeling i feel?
i thought i have resolute myself
to forget everything
no more pains i experienced

after she is gone
and she might disappeared from my life
do i regret?
to not see her 1 last time

do i regret?
or else am i angry to myself
to not seeing her one last time
for my own mistake?

i don't now, anyway....
she is gone now
and she have create her own path
away from me, so far as the world

i should move on too
move without seeing my past anymore
to create my new path
where me self will be waiting somewhere

in a few more moments

in a few more moments
you will not be a young girl anymore
you will be a woman
ready to face all life in the system we called world

all i can do is pray
pray for your future will be bright
pray that you still can enjoy girl's life sometimes
pray that the world don't consume you whole

in a few more moments
you will not be lonely anymore
you will have a partner for life
a partner that will never desert you no matter what

all i can do is pray
pray that you will be together all the time
to cross the sky, sea and desert
and you will never be lonely anymore

in a few more moments
you will be blessed with a mystery
a mystery of creation by our Father
that could revealed to you any moment

all i can do is pray
if God see it fit, a great mother you shall be
a filial and faithful shall adorned your children
and might they become a prize when you are aging

in a few more moments
you will be blessed with a new family
your own family to take care to
and love to

all i can do is pray
may your family loved you in return
may your smiling face bestowed peace
may you be sun and rain for you and your family

P.S.
lain kali kasih tahu sebulan sebelumnya dunk
dasar kathie-motou. ternyata ente duluan... cheh
doain aku juga bisa cepetan juga yach.

do boundary obstruct love?

do boundary obstruct love?
i wonder
do love can't be lost if there are boundary?
i really wonder

do love can be loosen by boundary of distance?
i wonder
do love can be stronger if their distance are minimum?
i really wonder

do love can be loosen by boundary of age?
i wonder
do love can be stronger if their age similar?
i really wonder

do love can be loosen by boundary of religion?
i wonder
do love can be stronger if their belief are same?
i really wonder

do love can be loosen by boundary of status?
i wonder
do love can be stronger if their status are same?
i really wonder

do love can be loosen by boundary of language?
i wonder
do love can be stronger if their tongue are same?
i really wonder

do love can be loosen by boundary of family dispute?
i wonder
do love can be stronger if their families are tightly friends?
i really wonder

do love can be loosen by boundary of caste?
i wonder
do love can be stronger if their caste are same?
i really wonder

do love can be loosen by boundary of wealth?
i wonder
do love can be stronger if their banknote are same?
i really wonder

do love can be loosen by boundary of something?
i wonder
do love can be stronger if that something aren't exist?
i really wonder

do love really are that weak?
i wonder
or do love are that strong?
i really wonder

do love need reason

do love need reason?
i wonder
do love someone else more than ourselves need a reason?
i really wonder

do you love someone because they are attractive?
i wonder
what happen when they are not attractive anymore?
i really wonder

do you love someone because they are kind?
i wonder
what happen when they are not kind anymore?
i really wonder

do you love someone because they are pious?
i wonder
what happen when they are not pious anymore?
i really wonder

do you love someone because they are rich?
i wonder
what happen when they are not rich anymore
i really wonder

do you love someone because they are strong?
i wonder
what happen when they are not strong anymore?
i really wonder

do you love someone because they are noble?
i wonder
what happen when they are not noble anymore?
i really wonder

do you love someone because they are smart?
i wonder
what happen when they are not smart anymore?
i really wonder

do you love someone because they are something?
i wonder
what happen when they are not something anymore?
i really wonder

so i wonder
do love need reason?
do i need a reason to love someone?
i wonder, i really wonder

i'm asking why

I was childish and unfair
To you, my only friend
I regret, but now it's too late

I can't show you any more
The things I've learned from you
Cause life just took you away

I'm asking why
I'm asking why
Nobody gives an answer

But someday we'll meet again
And I'll ask you
I'll ask you why

Why it has to be like this
I'm asking you why
Please give me an answer

Many days and stupid fights
Till we accept to see
How it was and it'll always be

Why it has to be like this
Why we don't realize
Why we're apart, and unbridgeable ravine

I'm asking why
I'm asking why
you don't gives me an answer

I'm just asking why

its done!

the harsh road
the thorny way
the scorching alley
but its done and i forget them all

the time of struggle
the hours of hard works
the seconds of stress
but its done and i forget them all

the grim situation
the ghastly warden
the cold sweats
but its done and i forget them all

now i just pray
so whatever happen
it happen for the best
and suitable for your eyes