how can it happen?

how can it happened?
i don't really comprehend
my mind in tornado
i can't think clearly

one moment everything was perfect
one moment all seems alright
but with one ripple, just one
all changed...

i wish i could turn back time
to see what i did to create this
my mind can't think straight
my heart howl and ache

is this my mistake?
if it is, i apologized
i couldn't take back my words
but show me how i can mend it

i know i am not yet worthy
i have low self-confidence
i even can't ride a thing
and rely on you to take me everywhere

its okay you mad at me
but please don't torture me
tell me the reason
and i'll find a way to mend it

you are the best thing that even happened in my life
i don't want to lose it for even a second
i already hurt too much
i can't take another torture

God, please tell me what should i do
i am blind and deaf
i am unable to do anything
i am lost, guide me, guide me back to light