Calm before the Storm

Today is easy
i'm not that beaten up
i'm pretty relax
it's simple

but i know
it just a calm before a storm

we could laugh easily today
we can speak our dreams easily
we might have fun
we should enjoy the day

but we know
it just a calm before a storm

P.S. Dedicated to teacher in SMK MHS, semoga tahun ini segera cepat berakhir

challange of time

time is eternal
time never wait
time always run
time never stop

whenever you fight time
you'll always lose
because you'll always
run out of time

in 5 weeks
I'll be challenged
by time itself
to run my best

non-stop

i afraid i can't
i afraid i'll lost
i afraid i'll beaten
i afraid i'll disappoint everybody

but for that reason
i must be strong
for simple reason
i must be prepare

for my lil' brothers and sisters
for my children
for my class
for my self

i wonder God
can i really survive it
nonstop fullpower
all days?

Dear God
Give me strength
give me bravery
and finally give me patience

P.S. mulai next week ngajar nonstop dari pagi ampe sore 2 tempat lagi
Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!
help donk

don't be afraid

don't be afraid
365 it is mentioned in the Bible
but i'll said again
don't be afraid

extreme condition
is just a play of number
number played by nature
to mock your power over them

you have the power to overcome
overcome everything
if you believe
you have the power

although i can't be there for you right now
i always right beside you
never be afraid
i always be there for you

P.S. yang lagi demam, relax, it's just simple fever. take a rest
take a deepbreath, relax

insight

insight is truly significant
insight can burn all mask and shell
any bluff and lie will not pass a great insight
all shall not hide in front of a grand insight

some have
more do not have
but no matter how well
i conceal it

still it be found in just one look
what a great memory and insight
hovering easily
towards intricately woven words

P.S. dedicated to Lenny, 1 look enough to solve my riddle. well, it's an easy one anyway

relax, there is a way

5
4
3
2

even the countdown already begin
there is no way i will give up
even the second only in count
there is no way i will give in

that is what i used to believe
maybe...
i still believe it
but not to today's extent

relax
strive
is actually two powers of a balance
a strong strive must have a strong relax too

too relax is not good
too strive is not good
it must have a balance
a perfect balance

so, whatever you do
how desperate it is
how terrible it is
relax, there is a way

as long as you believe
there is a way
ask
and thou shalt be given

P.S. i was too stressful recently, i need to return to my old pace, relax, calm and decisive but run to the fullest and give more than i can give

Young and Brave

Young and Brave
there are the vision
of the youth
of today

Fencing and striving
never give up
chasing for the star and rainbow
just between me and you

Rain and thunder do not fear me
scorch and desert sand do not falter
because what i search is true
even no feel like flagella

Because what i search is me
my other part that had been lost
since the beginning of my time
i will find her in all shape and plan

What i search is buried in this earth
mixed and combined in any way possible
but i then finally found her
and i love her dearly like heaven

And finally
i shall declare one more time
to public and the world
like if it's rain, i shall not use umbrella

i love you, ____________

P.S. try to fill the bracket above. it should be easy
i even give a very obvious clue

tired

i'm tired
i'm so tired of being me
why everybody can relax and enjoy their life
but i can't

when i want to relax
there always something come out
and make me can't take even a breath
and helping with my 120%

while i am only 100%
i can't be separate to three
why you all want me to help
is there only me?

i know i shouldn't mad
i shouldn't angry
i shouldn't complain
they are after all, my lil' cute brothers and sisters

God, give me strength
to run another day
and another day
with 120% power

i don't want to make them worried
i don't want to make them worried about me
they already have plenty of problem
so God, give me strength

that's all i ask
let today be my tired
tomorrow i will return with full power
to face all of them

atone for my sin today
i will give them spirit
of my power
they never even seen

P.S. i'm so dead tired today, my back sore me, my throat even can speak ussually
man..., help me God

impulse are nothing

what are impulse?
are they heat?
are they cold?
what are impulse?

what are impulse?
are they shock?
are they breeze?
what are impulse?

what are impulse?
are they feeling?
are they touch?
what are impulse?

from what i know
it doesn't matter anymore
what are impulse
because you are there inside me

and that's pretty good for me
for now
who knows what will happen
in future

it could be tomorrow
it could be next week
it could be next month
it could be next year

P.S. just read your blog, cold you say? it's not cold yet, barely cold only. but for someone who live under heat of 23-25, that's cold... man, i do miss you...

Humans

What are human?
are you human?
what make you, a human?
and finally what make everything else, not human?

human are a speck of dust in universe
human are nothing but a tiny dot who is not that important
human's role are predetermined by the fate and destiny
human are actually a bit of nothingness

but as nothing as dust
as nothing even more less importance
as nothing as being ruled by unseen force
as nothing as possible

we are still do not really care about anything else
we are still hate each other, mad at each other
we are still feel sorrow, envy, and victory over same fellow of dust
we are graded ourselves to far but we are only a dust

man...
we are arrogant
we are indeed do not deserve any grace
we are indeed, truly indeed do not deserve any compassion

but
He still care for us
He still love us
He still be there for us

who is He?
where to find Him?
He will come to you
open your heart and see it for yourself
He will be there

P.S. dedicated for everyone who still struggle in life

half a day separated

last time
our time are one
whenever i want to see you
just a matter of fingertip

it was easy
almost to easy
too easy to get
too easy to forget

but when you're not around
this world seems wierd
my tiredness is building up like tower
standing straight like a piercing gigant

our time have separated for half a day
reaching you means i must race against time
a race that no man will ever win against
a race with no hope of winning

yet i cling on that very slim chance
a chance that time allow me
once more...
to see you once again


P.S. Dedicated yo me actually... man, i do really miss you
when you're back?

dizzy but fun

18 hours a day
6 days a week
that is my working hours
teaching, giving lectures
making fun class, chat with students
giving test, giving points

that all i do all the time
every night my head spinning
like hundreds of screws racing to reach my brain
my body all hurt over, my mental burden is heavy
but i must recharge all of it back to 200%
so tomorrow be next class and lesson hours a

i was tired
i was bored
i felt like being enslaved
by the world called education
the world has fallen
into people who are smart and not

but...

24 hours a day
7 days a week
that is His working hours
caring, giving grace
making life happy, chat with all of us
giving trial, and giving himself

that's all He had been doing
even before i was exist
before my parents even existed
his body all over wounded
more painful even with my dizzy
and He will do it again forever

He was never tired
He was never bored
He was never felt like being enslaved
b'coz He is the Lord Jesus Christ
Who raise the fallen World
to his heavenly embrace

SO...

what i am to complain
i am dizzy
but it's fun
because tomorrow
will be MUCH better
than today


P.S. dedicated to all workacholic who thinks this is truly a torture

when children grow

when he was born
he was incredibly beautiful
when her first smile appear
she was heavenly gift

when he rode his first bike
he was laughing without sin
when she play with her doll
she was so pretty without worry

but when he know the world
he became rude to us
but when she know pride
she is violent to her friend

stop!
even you are not a child anymore
but you are also a mature neither
you are confuse

be a child
be a mature
you are beautiful and gift
don't let the world spoils you

with hatred
with jealousy
with violence
with anger

P.S. dedicated to Rina, Yulia, Wilia, Kristiani and all SMK MHS Students
talented women and men who lost their ways

kid in town of nightmare

there was a child
so pure and simple
she came from a little town
with friendly face and laugh

he came to a big city
seeking for luck and joy
but what she found
is nightmare and sorrow

she was never known to lies
she was never understand hatred
she was never known to bully
she was never understand jealousy

she is treated lower than slave
even slave still have some pride
she is left with thousand of job
but never once she enjoy the fruit of her labor

she feel angry
she feel anger
for the first time in her life
she want something for herself

she then cleave all the boundary
rush with toughness alone
in the middle of the nightmare city
to reach the top

UNTIL ALL BOW BEFORE ME
I SHALL NOT BE A CHILD!!!!!

P.S. created just for iwed

what you know

what you know can make you cry
what you know can make you sad
what you know can make you feel want to die

but

what you know can also make you smile
what you know can also make you happy
what you know can also make you fly to heaven

but

what you don't know will make you doubt
what you don't know will make you curious
what you don't know will make you confuse

so do you wish to not knowing and feel peace
or you will take the risk of chance of happy or feel the loss

P.S. dedicated to all who still trapped in prison called heartbreak and solitary