Atra Legio First Battle

From throughout the land
combine fiery and young ones
to combine together
as Atra Legio

Atra means Black
Legio means Army
Atra Legio, The Black Army
come to rule and conquer all

Their first battle will decide everything
their first battle show their determination
their first battle will show their path
their first battle show their courage

in their first battle
the people cheering for them
their first battle is a win
but there are so many mistakes

but this is the first of many
keep fight my atra legio
my army
my children

P.S. Good job Atra Legio, not bad for a first fight, be prepare for further fight

Happy Birthday, Yu Hime

one more year have passed once again
the wheel of fate and time spin one full turn
to reveal the infinite future and doors
for you to pick and immerse

may the year be great and greater
from previous and past
may the year give you joy and wisdom
as well as luck and prosperity

may God give you Joy
Joy for everyday you face
joy for everything you have
and Joy for everyone you love

May God give you wisdom
wisdom for knowledge and logic
wisdom for social and insight
wisdom of life and beyond

May there always an angel
to watch over you
to guide each step of the way
to guard you and keep you from all harm

May you bring love
May you bring happiness
Be loved in return
Til the end of your days

I can't give you anything
i can only give you prayers for your safety and joy
i can only give you this poem of admiration
i can only give you a song to brighten your day

may that be a good start of your new age
may a shining path of your future be opened
may dazzling days fill your days
may all the good thing always be with you

P.S. Happy birthday, too bad you're not here

ash

i am human
i am teacher
i am artist
i am leader

i am superior
i am great
i am dazzling
i am incredible

i am pathetic
i am useless
i am aimless
i am disabled

whatever i am
i am i
is that true?
is that what i am

today once again
human reminded of what they are
they are ashes
nothing more, nothing less

just ash

P.S. Wednesday of Ash (rabu abu) May God forgive all our Sins, and may us repent to all we've done. let's start the advent before easter (ADVENTUS)

generation gap

why sometimes i wonder
old and young fighting
fighting a battle
a battle that never end

young and old
children and parents
youth and elders
adolescent and adults

the young one are passionate
burn with fire to proof oneself
rise with spirit to challange everything
just want to try whether win or lost

the old one are patience
thinking with wisdom and insight
never plan a losing match
never really even plan a drastic measures

the young consider the old one too slow
conservative and boring
too strict to giving freedom
grip too hard and never let loose

the old consider the young one too reckless
never think of greater picture
never think of risk and error
and always looking for fun only

it's a battle
that shouldn't be happen
in a place as sacred as school
where we all should be as one

GOD!
what should i do?
i'm in a middle of battle
where i believe both have points

P.S. pressure of being leader is truly harsh... my team! let's stand firm

and brace it together!!!

an honor and a burden

all things come with two
a joy and an honor
and a burden of responsibilty
which both are equally large

the more people you know
the more you need to be senseful
the more year you pass
the more you need to be wiser

i just realise that i am no one but a child
who's given a task so vast and big
bigger than my wildest dreams
is this what i'm holding now?

internal development
network to outer world
quality and quantity inprovement
competition and extracurriculer

am i ready?
i believe God see that i am ready
but am i ready?
i want to believe, but am i truly ready?

with so so so many things
to think, to find
to construct, to create
to maintain, to protect

my burden are great...
thanks God, my team are also great
my trusted team
who i trust and believe without sway

P.S. to naldy, ard, lenny-imouto, agus. you are my best team so far, don't fail and fall on me... and the last person who are not on the team yet... hope you are willing to be part of my team...

happy valentine

happy valentine to my mother
for your kind and caring actions
for every knowledge and expierence you give me
for loving me for eternity

happy valentine to Jikou
for teaching me the way of relaxing
for teaching me the mood to enjoy life
for teaching to see beyond all failures

happy valentine to Katherine
for your toughness and bravery
for your ignition of being a teacher
for your spirit that kindle my own

happy valentine to Agustina
for your leadership style which affect my own
for your quick thinking which alter mine
for your vast knowledge which facinate me to learn more

happy valentine to Lydia Angela
for your time encouraging mine
for standing firm to my egoism
for being there when i need it

happy valentine to Agustina Dewi
for being a friend to share my stories
for being a sister to give me solution
for being a baby which must be treated all the time

happy valentine to Bu Suzanna
for finding me my own talent
for inviting me to be a teacher
for teaching how to be a teacher

happy valentine to Lenny-Imouto
for listen for all my words
for lifting me from depth of hell
for spreading joy to my world

happy valentine to Yuanna
for being a smile whatever happen
for giving me a spirit when i lost them
for then treasured time

and last...

happy valentine to the Hime
for appearing in my life
i love you more than myself
whatever you think of me, i don't regretting meeting you

a new trial in 11 days

in eleven days
a very short time
a very very short time
too short time to prepare for a great change

i will face another trial
a trial i never have before
a trial so vast and bore great responsibility
so challanging that i questions my own capabilities

i will soon face a trial
a trial of my own leadership
a trial of my own idealism
a trial of my own vision and determination

i hope i can fulfill my own role
i hope i can satisfied people hope on me
i hope i can bring much better to the future
i hope i can survive...

GOD!
i know this is a great plan
but, am i ready?
i don't really know

but if You think i am ready
then... let's give something to be remember of
i pray what i do in this school
will be the channel of Your Greatness

P.S.
Kajur kah... cepat wak...

semoga naldy, ardian, lenny-imouto and guru guru yang lain bisa bantu...
HAIZ!!!! FULL POWERED DCY1! LET'S RUMBLE!!!

why i sometime think to negative?

why?
sometimes i feel depressed
depressed on my own failure
depressed on my own weakness

why?
i often never see my own strength
never see my bright side
never see my own shining nova

why?
sometimes i hate myself
for being weak
for being childish

why?
sometimes i loathe myself
for being useless
for being incapable

even though people tell me, i'm strong and independen
why sometimes i feel i desperately need to depend on someone?
even though people tell me, i'm funny and energetic
why sometimes i feel i'm gloomy and have no desire to even move?

even though people tell me, i'm useful and capable
why sometimes i feel pathetic and can't do anything well?
am i so afraid of failures?
am i so that afraid to lose?

but i must be strong!
God knows i'm not weak, useless and incapable
at least not that what i think of
i must be more positive

if myself already think of myself as useless
how can someone else think of myself as useful?
if myself already condemn myself with failure
how can someone else think of myself as a good teacher?

even God says to me just now
human failure is normal
but you must get back to your feet
or thou shalt never bore fruits anymore

i must stand firm and strong
for my students
for my brothers and sisters
for my family
for God

if i can't stand myself
how can i see myself as worthy of her?
a woman i love more than even myself
i feel ashamed of myown stupidity

oh well,
i think i really need scold sometimes
thank God, i have a sister
who can lift my miseries without failed

i truly thank You for her presence
our meet was accidental
but i believe You wish us to meet
in that such a way

sometimes i wonder
what are Your plan?
i can't understand it at all, not even a bit
bu i believe without sway, it's a beautiful plan

P.S. Mat 21:19 Dekat jalan Ia melihat pohon ara lalu pergi ke situ, tetapi Ia tidak mendapat apa-apa pada pohon itu selain daun-daun saja. Kata-Nya kepada pohon itu: "Engkau tidak akan berbuah lagi selama-lamanya!" Dan seketika itu juga keringlah pohon ara itu.

wew, itu keras wak... Thanks, God

back to the dance floor

after 7 years of vacuum
i'm return to the floor
the floor of sweat and rhythm
the floor i thought i've lost forever

in that fateful place
in the place that have given me a lot
i'm once given another shot on dance floor
to young dancer to understand the joy of dancing

my stiff and stained movement
indeed is not suitable to dance anymore
but at least i can still enjoy the dance
as i am did 7 years ago

P.S. DANCE!!!!!! it's feel good to dance again!!!!!!

bridge over two worlds

the two worlds spanning far and beyond
the one world reaching out without rest
the one other is not known either far or not
the two worlds are spanning to far

but a bridge have settled between them
a bridge so little and so fragile
but firm and strong
bridging both of two worlds

the bridge understand both world
the bridge know what happen
but the bridge just silent
as silent as a hill

P.S. thanks and sorry to lenny-imouto, and please don't feel that strange, it's... normal. kakaka

what should i do then

in few moment again
i will be a leader of a new team
a team of teachers
teaching a everlasting mutating subject

what should i do then

in few moment again
i must reach out for more team member
i know a candidate i can trust and rely on
but where to start?

what should i do then

in a near future
i must choose my investment priority
a shelter or a vehicle
which one first?

what should i do then

in a near future
i might self-destruct myself
i might asking my own dedication
i might be sway with many temptations

what should i do then

in the future
i will find a partner God see as equal
i will have the future generation as my responsibilty
i will have the joy of meeting and sorrow of parting

what should i do then

in the future not that far
i will face another teast of God
test of brain and heart
test that not i am to decide

what should i do then

P.S. the pace is faster and faster now, move FASTER than then pace!!!! FULL POWERED DCY1 ROARING AWAY!!!!! but is it enough for me to prepare myself in one month? i wonder...