Gambling...
a process of greed and jealousy
where dirty people gather to wager
filled with whores and blasphmey
gambling...
never once it return any good
nor gift wnough to relieve the wound
everyone is suffering in gambling
but today, i gamble...
in a very tiny hope
it will be good
it will bring good result
although i know gambling
never bring good
i just hope
this one will
on God's Will
then it will be done
by Your Name i put this wager
may it will bring glory to your Name
P.S. i bet my trust and my money on you, lief!
05 October 2009
14 September 2009
return to hometown
after long but short 5 years
i return to my old home
to find my home
strange to me...
i find it wierd in this town
a town where i grew
a town where i have so many memories
i find i am a stranger in this town
all my standard
all my knowledge
are useless here
where i must regain my old self
where can i start
where can i go to begin
where to put the bookmark
where is the benchmark
P.S. first day in pontianak... hmm, i indeed leave khuntien too long
i return to my old home
to find my home
strange to me...
i find it wierd in this town
a town where i grew
a town where i have so many memories
i find i am a stranger in this town
all my standard
all my knowledge
are useless here
where i must regain my old self
where can i start
where can i go to begin
where to put the bookmark
where is the benchmark
P.S. first day in pontianak... hmm, i indeed leave khuntien too long
a week of torture
what a week
a week of pain and torture
a earthy hell
what a week
i am bored
i am hot
i am lonely
and i am in hell
but even in hell
i still on earth
but even i feel like in hell
sometimes it will feel like in earth too
P.S. Diklat di lpmp... penderitaan, but i gain something too
a week of pain and torture
a earthy hell
what a week
i am bored
i am hot
i am lonely
and i am in hell
but even in hell
i still on earth
but even i feel like in hell
sometimes it will feel like in earth too
P.S. Diklat di lpmp... penderitaan, but i gain something too
29 July 2009
when a leader go astray
a ship is one unit
one body
and one soul
but a ship must be lead by a leader
when a leader is strong
the whole ship will be strong
so strong that it will become a battleship
feared and revered at the same time
when a leader is productive
the whole ship will be too
so productive that it will become a fishery ship
to feed all other ship and bring more to life
when a leader is wise
the whole ship will be filled with wisdom
so wise that it will become a scholar ship
to teach all other to become wiser in life
when a leader is creative
the whole ship will be filled with joy
so happy that it will become a cruise ship
to bring happiness and delete all sorrow
when a leader is kind
the whole ship will be kind too
so kind that it will become a hospital ship
to heal all problems and diseases
when a leader is calm
the whole ship will be in tranquil
to relax it will become a mothership
to hold all other to give them chance to relax
when a leader go astray
the whole ship will go berserk
so berserk it will ripped itself to many pieces
and finally sink to the bottom of the seas
P.S. all leaders, beware! all of your unit are depend on you, go astray
once, you all doomed
one body
and one soul
but a ship must be lead by a leader
when a leader is strong
the whole ship will be strong
so strong that it will become a battleship
feared and revered at the same time
when a leader is productive
the whole ship will be too
so productive that it will become a fishery ship
to feed all other ship and bring more to life
when a leader is wise
the whole ship will be filled with wisdom
so wise that it will become a scholar ship
to teach all other to become wiser in life
when a leader is creative
the whole ship will be filled with joy
so happy that it will become a cruise ship
to bring happiness and delete all sorrow
when a leader is kind
the whole ship will be kind too
so kind that it will become a hospital ship
to heal all problems and diseases
when a leader is calm
the whole ship will be in tranquil
to relax it will become a mothership
to hold all other to give them chance to relax
when a leader go astray
the whole ship will go berserk
so berserk it will ripped itself to many pieces
and finally sink to the bottom of the seas
P.S. all leaders, beware! all of your unit are depend on you, go astray
once, you all doomed
balance
yin and yang
heaven and earth
right and left
sword and shield
all lies in the earth
live in perfect equilibrium
a beautiful balance
a law that can't be denied
gift and curse
rich and poor
male and female
angel and demon
all in a balance
a nature of all things
all seeks to balance
to balance all they seek
but why
oh, why, i still can;t reach that balance
i dream and i seek for
will i ever reach balance state?
P.S. one day you Dang motorcycle!!!!!
heaven and earth
right and left
sword and shield
all lies in the earth
live in perfect equilibrium
a beautiful balance
a law that can't be denied
gift and curse
rich and poor
male and female
angel and demon
all in a balance
a nature of all things
all seeks to balance
to balance all they seek
but why
oh, why, i still can;t reach that balance
i dream and i seek for
will i ever reach balance state?
P.S. one day you Dang motorcycle!!!!!
Stupid Mistake
i have let you down down
i have been such a fool
leaning to those temptation
where i should played it cool
the situation is got out hand
i hope you understand
it could happen to anyone of us
anyone you know, you knew, and you will know
sometimes they hurt the one the love most
because of a stupid mistake
because of those tiny mistakes
sometimes the retribution could bigger than ocean
because of those unnoticeable holes
sometimes will create a opening enough to destroy a dam
P.S. i hope you can forgive me for those tiny holes and i hope to realised it before it's too late, i don't want to lose you
Taken from song 'anyone of us' by gareth gates
i have been such a fool
leaning to those temptation
where i should played it cool
the situation is got out hand
i hope you understand
it could happen to anyone of us
anyone you know, you knew, and you will know
sometimes they hurt the one the love most
because of a stupid mistake
because of those tiny mistakes
sometimes the retribution could bigger than ocean
because of those unnoticeable holes
sometimes will create a opening enough to destroy a dam
P.S. i hope you can forgive me for those tiny holes and i hope to realised it before it's too late, i don't want to lose you
Taken from song 'anyone of us' by gareth gates
God didn't Exist
God didn't exist
only madmen say those line
God definite don't exist
only imbeciles say those line
science is truth
only men with beansprout as brain say those line
science is absolute
only men not from a woman's womb say those line
it is true science is what we study
it can be proven and shown to all eyes
where God is unstudiable
it can't be proven and shown to you all
but where is harder to prove God exist?
or prove God DIDN'T EXIST?
where are the prove God Didn't exist?
Where?
where science is truth and absolute?
even world's smartest man could make mistake
world speculate about things they don't understand
such as God, which is unstudiable
so did God Existed?
or do God Exist
or science is Truth
the same science that can answer all human's questions
P.S. inspired by Angel & Demon, one of the greatest novels of all time
only madmen say those line
God definite don't exist
only imbeciles say those line
science is truth
only men with beansprout as brain say those line
science is absolute
only men not from a woman's womb say those line
it is true science is what we study
it can be proven and shown to all eyes
where God is unstudiable
it can't be proven and shown to you all
but where is harder to prove God exist?
or prove God DIDN'T EXIST?
where are the prove God Didn't exist?
Where?
where science is truth and absolute?
even world's smartest man could make mistake
world speculate about things they don't understand
such as God, which is unstudiable
so did God Existed?
or do God Exist
or science is Truth
the same science that can answer all human's questions
P.S. inspired by Angel & Demon, one of the greatest novels of all time
Rain
rain
water drops
cleaning all dry and drougth
bring fresh and life to dead earth
rain
fallen ice
piercing all earth's creatures
warning them all of greater power
rain
nature miracles
uniting heaven and earth
where God meet human
rain
raging nature
where God show His power
to wash all sins in one swope
P.S. Rain, should people jump in joy or cowering in fear when they come?
water drops
cleaning all dry and drougth
bring fresh and life to dead earth
rain
fallen ice
piercing all earth's creatures
warning them all of greater power
rain
nature miracles
uniting heaven and earth
where God meet human
rain
raging nature
where God show His power
to wash all sins in one swope
P.S. Rain, should people jump in joy or cowering in fear when they come?
ir's harder than it's look
being a leader
is much much harder than being a worker
so if you want to be a leader
think twice first, can you cope with it?
being the one to hold on
is much much harder than being the one holding
so if you want to hold
think twice first, can you hold them all?
being a teacher
is much much harder than being a student
so if you want to teach
think twice first, can you bear all of it?
being the one to lead teacher
is much much harder than all above
so if you want that job
don't think, just do it all!!!
P.S. dang, HoD is so harsh, job of a warship general with salary of a young private.
is much much harder than being a worker
so if you want to be a leader
think twice first, can you cope with it?
being the one to hold on
is much much harder than being the one holding
so if you want to hold
think twice first, can you hold them all?
being a teacher
is much much harder than being a student
so if you want to teach
think twice first, can you bear all of it?
being the one to lead teacher
is much much harder than all above
so if you want that job
don't think, just do it all!!!
P.S. dang, HoD is so harsh, job of a warship general with salary of a young private.
new breed of masters
another year has pass
and more blood and vein
flown in secret steps
to the realm of black mansion
new archvampires
new imps
new demons
new goblins
all ready to fill the slot of doom
to once again, the creation of masters
to once again, repeat th cycle
to once again, passing one more year
dear God, once again
i will face another turmoil
more and more will come before me
and before me they all
let the come
and let me to pass them all
in return of all their trust
to gather more and more bloods
P.S. dedicated to new breed of MHS, may them all be great one day
and more blood and vein
flown in secret steps
to the realm of black mansion
new archvampires
new imps
new demons
new goblins
all ready to fill the slot of doom
to once again, the creation of masters
to once again, repeat th cycle
to once again, passing one more year
dear God, once again
i will face another turmoil
more and more will come before me
and before me they all
let the come
and let me to pass them all
in return of all their trust
to gather more and more bloods
P.S. dedicated to new breed of MHS, may them all be great one day
it's been a while
it's been a while
i miss do my blog again
my time have been consumed so much by so many thing
it's been a while since my last work here
i hope this could bring me back to my old pace
i miss do my blog again
my time have been consumed so much by so many thing
it's been a while since my last work here
i hope this could bring me back to my old pace
27 June 2009
The first day like a month
it's only 2 weeks i know
but it's the 2 longest weeks i've ever had
it's only 2 weeks i know
but i long to skip those two weeks
it's only the first day
but i laready miss her
it's only the first day
but for me, it's like a month
P.S. Miss your Dearest...
but it's the 2 longest weeks i've ever had
it's only 2 weeks i know
but i long to skip those two weeks
it's only the first day
but i laready miss her
it's only the first day
but for me, it's like a month
P.S. Miss your Dearest...
05 June 2009
stand firm, and be strong
there are time to meet
there are time to separate
there are time to laugh
there are time to cry
there are time to love
there are time to hate
there are time to dance
there are time to numb
there are time to run
there are time to sit
there are time to talk
there are time to silent
there are time to be with people
there are time to be alone
there are time to have fun
there are time to let go of fun
there are time to birth
there are time to die
but live must go on, without stopping
if you stop, you will die
stand firm, and be strong
cause life is much more that today
P.S. Immanuel, stand firm and be strong
there are time to separate
there are time to laugh
there are time to cry
there are time to love
there are time to hate
there are time to dance
there are time to numb
there are time to run
there are time to sit
there are time to talk
there are time to silent
there are time to be with people
there are time to be alone
there are time to have fun
there are time to let go of fun
there are time to birth
there are time to die
but live must go on, without stopping
if you stop, you will die
stand firm, and be strong
cause life is much more that today
P.S. Immanuel, stand firm and be strong
stupid mistake
i have letting you down
i have make you dissappointed
all because of my arrogance and egoism
i have hurt your feeling deeply
all i have done
is vanished directly
because of that
stupid mistake
thanks for you to forgive me
forgive this fool
who have done such stupid mistake
who have hurt your feeling
i have make you dissappointed
all because of my arrogance and egoism
i have hurt your feeling deeply
all i have done
is vanished directly
because of that
stupid mistake
thanks for you to forgive me
forgive this fool
who have done such stupid mistake
who have hurt your feeling
03 June 2009
we must stand firm, for our future
we might ache
we might cry
because of this new atmosphere
because of ripped apart from our custom
but if we still prolonged this habit
we will have more pain and difficulties
in the future, near future
we will be separate
but i want you to know
my heart yearn for you
my body seek your warmth
my brain think all for our goodness
but i must stand firm
you also must stand firm
for our own sake
for our own future
i know that you will angry with decision
confuse and doubting my love
or even questioning my care
i know and i realize that
but though it's painful
it must be done
i don't want to be too depandant to you
and you to me
let us stand firm
together
as a team
for our own sake
i hope you can accept my decision
i really do
i will accept any punishment later
for my decision
P.S. i hope you can accept my decision...
we might cry
because of this new atmosphere
because of ripped apart from our custom
but if we still prolonged this habit
we will have more pain and difficulties
in the future, near future
we will be separate
but i want you to know
my heart yearn for you
my body seek your warmth
my brain think all for our goodness
but i must stand firm
you also must stand firm
for our own sake
for our own future
i know that you will angry with decision
confuse and doubting my love
or even questioning my care
i know and i realize that
but though it's painful
it must be done
i don't want to be too depandant to you
and you to me
let us stand firm
together
as a team
for our own sake
i hope you can accept my decision
i really do
i will accept any punishment later
for my decision
P.S. i hope you can accept my decision...
11 May 2009
kok bisa
people keep asking
'kok bisa?'
'how come?'
'yang bener?'
'kok mau?'
'really?'
'ha!'
'bhong kali...'
well, i can't answer that question too
since i also don't know the answer
but there 1 thing i know very well
i love her and she love me too
logically we might differ too much
but in heart we as good as one
brain might lose in thought
but our heart synchron as a unity
'kok bisa?'
'how come?'
'yang bener?'
'kok mau?'
'really?'
'ha!'
'bhong kali...'
well, i can't answer that question too
since i also don't know the answer
but there 1 thing i know very well
i love her and she love me too
logically we might differ too much
but in heart we as good as one
brain might lose in thought
but our heart synchron as a unity
24 April 2009
whereever you go
i never thought that 1 day i found someone like you
never have i thought with you make me in a whole
with you whatever the day is, the sky is always blue
never again stormy skies and bad clouds fill my soul
our dance of waltz is eternal
i hope it will last forever and ever
the bond we have is ethereal
we never see it but it flows like a river
heaven and earth can't separate us
and no force on this plane can do the same feat
as long as we are one in heart we must
we will face all ordeal and all obstacle indeed
i am now can't live without you
so whereever you go take me too
that's all i ask of you
and promised me that it will stay true
P.S. my first Stanza, just for my dearest Lenny
never have i thought with you make me in a whole
with you whatever the day is, the sky is always blue
never again stormy skies and bad clouds fill my soul
our dance of waltz is eternal
i hope it will last forever and ever
the bond we have is ethereal
we never see it but it flows like a river
heaven and earth can't separate us
and no force on this plane can do the same feat
as long as we are one in heart we must
we will face all ordeal and all obstacle indeed
i am now can't live without you
so whereever you go take me too
that's all i ask of you
and promised me that it will stay true
P.S. my first Stanza, just for my dearest Lenny
07 April 2009
public declaration
after a while
after many considerations
after many thinkings
after many analyzes
we give in to our heart
and let them talk to their content
we let them to declare to the world
and let them know we're in love
madly in love
so mad we don't care anything else
and we want them to know
that we're in love
now that i'm hers
i am no longer live by myself
i am no longer live for myself
now that i'm hers
i can't live without her
one seconds without her
feels like losing half of me
i can't live without her
all we want now
is the world's blessing
and God's blessing
so we can be always together
but even without their blessing
i still want to be with her...
and she still want to be with me...
nonetheless...
P.S. now that i'm yours, please don't leave me anymore, or i shall die of sorrow
after many considerations
after many thinkings
after many analyzes
we give in to our heart
and let them talk to their content
we let them to declare to the world
and let them know we're in love
madly in love
so mad we don't care anything else
and we want them to know
that we're in love
now that i'm hers
i am no longer live by myself
i am no longer live for myself
now that i'm hers
i can't live without her
one seconds without her
feels like losing half of me
i can't live without her
all we want now
is the world's blessing
and God's blessing
so we can be always together
but even without their blessing
i still want to be with her...
and she still want to be with me...
nonetheless...
P.S. now that i'm yours, please don't leave me anymore, or i shall die of sorrow
in 3 years time
in three years time
things could be so differ
although the day is the same
but the time is different
in three years
same date
i felt desperation
and i feel utmost joy
in three years
same date
i felt pain
and i feel happiness
in three years
same date
i am alone
and i am never in solitude
in three years
same date
i promised to hell
and i promise to heaven
it's amazing
how time
can be so differ in just three years
same date, time can be so differ
P.S. 2006 and 2009... it's indeed different
things could be so differ
although the day is the same
but the time is different
in three years
same date
i felt desperation
and i feel utmost joy
in three years
same date
i felt pain
and i feel happiness
in three years
same date
i am alone
and i am never in solitude
in three years
same date
i promised to hell
and i promise to heaven
it's amazing
how time
can be so differ in just three years
same date, time can be so differ
P.S. 2006 and 2009... it's indeed different
02 April 2009
tounge is truly sharper than any swords
tounge
an organ used to speak
to taste
an organ unreplaceable
but sometimes
a tounge
is a curse
rather than a gift
just a tweak of wrong words
can shatter all things
just a split of wrong words
can destroy a relationship
now, i have realized
more than anything
a relationship
i cherish adn prioritized
now, i have realized
brain and heart
even with all of them
can still unable to stitch tounge
truly
a tounge is truly sharper than any swords
a sword can can even slice my soul
can be done with my tounge...
P.S. Sorry...
an organ used to speak
to taste
an organ unreplaceable
but sometimes
a tounge
is a curse
rather than a gift
just a tweak of wrong words
can shatter all things
just a split of wrong words
can destroy a relationship
now, i have realized
more than anything
a relationship
i cherish adn prioritized
now, i have realized
brain and heart
even with all of them
can still unable to stitch tounge
truly
a tounge is truly sharper than any swords
a sword can can even slice my soul
can be done with my tounge...
P.S. Sorry...
01 April 2009
shining
shining as you are
whatever people are saying
or whatever you think you are
for me, you are always shining
you might think you have no special traits
you might think someone else more special
but you are wrong
for me, you are always shining
you might think you are not beautiful
you might think someone else prettier than you
but you are wrong
for me, you are always shining
you might think you are not smart
you might think someone else cleverer than you
but you are wrong
for me, you are always shining
so when you are thinking you are not shining
for me, you always shining
that what i want you to understand
that whereever and whenever you are, you shines
P.S. be the shine that will brighten my days and melting my core, always...
whatever people are saying
or whatever you think you are
for me, you are always shining
you might think you have no special traits
you might think someone else more special
but you are wrong
for me, you are always shining
you might think you are not beautiful
you might think someone else prettier than you
but you are wrong
for me, you are always shining
you might think you are not smart
you might think someone else cleverer than you
but you are wrong
for me, you are always shining
so when you are thinking you are not shining
for me, you always shining
that what i want you to understand
that whereever and whenever you are, you shines
P.S. be the shine that will brighten my days and melting my core, always...
28 March 2009
Dillema
a choice
is a decision
you must make
everyday
some choices are easy
some are extremely hard
especially regarding
your brain and your heart
my heart really yearn for her smile
really wish for her victory
success and recognised by the world
in this one shot
but my heart also do not wish to part with her
as she might turn into someone unrecognised
my heart do not wish to see her tear
and my heart do not wish to let go
my brain really yearn for her victory
her success might bring much fortune
much opportunities
and much much more options
but my brain also do not wish to lose a great partner
a partner hold a vital role in my school
in near future and far future
and my brain do not wish to not seeing her
in this such a dillema
i confused
much much more confused
than before
but i'll decide
i'll support her anyway
if God wish us to part, then so be it
if Fate wish me to be alone take on more giants, then so be it
the most important for me
is her smile must not end
is her spirit must not die
and her capabilities must not be contained
P.S. GO!!!! and win!! my dearest...
is a decision
you must make
everyday
some choices are easy
some are extremely hard
especially regarding
your brain and your heart
my heart really yearn for her smile
really wish for her victory
success and recognised by the world
in this one shot
but my heart also do not wish to part with her
as she might turn into someone unrecognised
my heart do not wish to see her tear
and my heart do not wish to let go
my brain really yearn for her victory
her success might bring much fortune
much opportunities
and much much more options
but my brain also do not wish to lose a great partner
a partner hold a vital role in my school
in near future and far future
and my brain do not wish to not seeing her
in this such a dillema
i confused
much much more confused
than before
but i'll decide
i'll support her anyway
if God wish us to part, then so be it
if Fate wish me to be alone take on more giants, then so be it
the most important for me
is her smile must not end
is her spirit must not die
and her capabilities must not be contained
P.S. GO!!!! and win!! my dearest...
27 March 2009
Blue Bird
there once a bird
so vast and so immense
flaming eyes and burning feather
the holy phoenix is the name
i search for eternity
for possessing that bird
but no matter how much i exert
i can't reach it
in the end i give up
and losing hope
and a blue bird come to me
singing me to happiness
i realize that sometimes
what you want is not what you need
and the blue bird of happiness
is always in front of you, when you are ready
so why you need to spend much time
to find and seek the one you want
but in the you get none?
in time, the blue bird will find you
P.S. i hope i truly have found my blue bird, may yours also...
so vast and so immense
flaming eyes and burning feather
the holy phoenix is the name
i search for eternity
for possessing that bird
but no matter how much i exert
i can't reach it
in the end i give up
and losing hope
and a blue bird come to me
singing me to happiness
i realize that sometimes
what you want is not what you need
and the blue bird of happiness
is always in front of you, when you are ready
so why you need to spend much time
to find and seek the one you want
but in the you get none?
in time, the blue bird will find you
P.S. i hope i truly have found my blue bird, may yours also...
dancing in the rain
dancing in the rain
rain of cherry blossom
is something i can't give it to you
for now
but i can take you to that dance
in my dreams tonight
will you dance with me?
can i have this dance?
i dream of walking with you
in midst of fallen petals
hand in hand, eye to eye
just walking...
i dream of having holding on you
in the midst of fallen petals
to holding you toghtly as i never hold you
just holding you...
i dream of dancing with you
in the midts of fallen petals
dance to unknown music but ourselves
just dancing...
i will treasure that dream
even as i might forget other dreams
i will hold on that dreams
and hope it will come truth one day
P.S. one day... that's all i can say
rain of cherry blossom
is something i can't give it to you
for now
but i can take you to that dance
in my dreams tonight
will you dance with me?
can i have this dance?
i dream of walking with you
in midst of fallen petals
hand in hand, eye to eye
just walking...
i dream of having holding on you
in the midst of fallen petals
to holding you toghtly as i never hold you
just holding you...
i dream of dancing with you
in the midts of fallen petals
dance to unknown music but ourselves
just dancing...
i will treasure that dream
even as i might forget other dreams
i will hold on that dreams
and hope it will come truth one day
P.S. one day... that's all i can say
its start with a click
it start with a click
our meets and our beginning
its wierd as it is
but thats the way it is
our meeting everyday
simple and easy
we expressing ourselves freely
without bound to rules and manner
when she is not there
it's feel so empty and void
but in just one simple text message
the world seems brigther
when the days getting longer
the more time we spend together
when the days grow older
the more hesitate to i to leave her
i want to support her the fullest i can be
i want to be with her the longest i can be
but what are we?
it bothers me so...
at last i realized
that i have fallen for her
fallen so deeply i don't realize
yes, i love her
and it's all start with a click
our meets and our beginning
its wierd as it is
but thats the way it is
P.S. it wierd and funny when you meet someone, and the funnier to see what you both gonna be
our meets and our beginning
its wierd as it is
but thats the way it is
our meeting everyday
simple and easy
we expressing ourselves freely
without bound to rules and manner
when she is not there
it's feel so empty and void
but in just one simple text message
the world seems brigther
when the days getting longer
the more time we spend together
when the days grow older
the more hesitate to i to leave her
i want to support her the fullest i can be
i want to be with her the longest i can be
but what are we?
it bothers me so...
at last i realized
that i have fallen for her
fallen so deeply i don't realize
yes, i love her
and it's all start with a click
our meets and our beginning
its wierd as it is
but thats the way it is
P.S. it wierd and funny when you meet someone, and the funnier to see what you both gonna be
20 March 2009
am i a failure?
am i a failure?
i often asked that question nowadays
am i a failure?
why didn't i have an exact answer?
i failed to be a good teacher
i failed!
i failed!
i failed...
no wonder... they become astray
no wonder... they rejects my presence
no wonder... they lost
no wonder... everybody give up on me
am i a failure?
GOD!
am i truly crafted to be failed
or you wish to mold me harder?
i often asked that question nowadays
am i a failure?
why didn't i have an exact answer?
i failed to be a good teacher
i failed!
i failed!
i failed...
no wonder... they become astray
no wonder... they rejects my presence
no wonder... they lost
no wonder... everybody give up on me
am i a failure?
GOD!
am i truly crafted to be failed
or you wish to mold me harder?
15 March 2009
14th march 2009
14th march of 2009
together with
2nd april of 2006
is two dates i'll never forget
it's a day i lost
well, i thought i lost it
it's a day i lose
well, i thought i lose it
anyway,
a no answer is already predicted
planned and prepared
still, i found it shattered my heart nonetheless
but i must not dwell to much on sorrow and sadness
loneliness and despair
i still have so many things
so so so so many things
and, what's the point being sad
being angry, or even being desperate
it won't bring any changes anyway
it won't bring any changing i wish for
so, let's rebound
and land on both legs
and ready to rumble and rush
to the top of my prime
P.S. well, i'll never forget 14 march of 2009, one of the longest day in my entire life, don't you agree yuanna-hime?
together with
2nd april of 2006
is two dates i'll never forget
it's a day i lost
well, i thought i lost it
it's a day i lose
well, i thought i lose it
anyway,
a no answer is already predicted
planned and prepared
still, i found it shattered my heart nonetheless
but i must not dwell to much on sorrow and sadness
loneliness and despair
i still have so many things
so so so so many things
and, what's the point being sad
being angry, or even being desperate
it won't bring any changes anyway
it won't bring any changing i wish for
so, let's rebound
and land on both legs
and ready to rumble and rush
to the top of my prime
P.S. well, i'll never forget 14 march of 2009, one of the longest day in my entire life, don't you agree yuanna-hime?
14 March 2009
confusion
deal with it when it come...
a sound strategy
but it was not that soundful
when the time come
when i see you
my heart skip a beat
i know and i already prepared
but where my preparation go?
i am confused
what face should i use
what smile should i put
what words should i said
GOD!
if you want to make me strong
that is the best moment!
the best!
where are my paths
which i have thinking so many days and nights?
where are my resolution
which i have prepared so many time and plane?
the answer...
i don't even know
i don't even dare to ask
and i don't know wht i don't know and dare to...
P.S. the time has come, why i want to turn back time now
a sound strategy
but it was not that soundful
when the time come
when i see you
my heart skip a beat
i know and i already prepared
but where my preparation go?
i am confused
what face should i use
what smile should i put
what words should i said
GOD!
if you want to make me strong
that is the best moment!
the best!
where are my paths
which i have thinking so many days and nights?
where are my resolution
which i have prepared so many time and plane?
the answer...
i don't even know
i don't even dare to ask
and i don't know wht i don't know and dare to...
P.S. the time has come, why i want to turn back time now
10 March 2009
the new breed of madness
the new breed of madness have born
the new breed of super team
the new breed to change the oldies
the new breed to create unlimited future
whenever they are in the era
when in my first of all
when in hime's second sparks
even in third teddy bear's network
they all
are CRAZY
MADNESS
INSANE
P.S. May EC will always be greatest in team, and be MAD at all time!
the new breed of super team
the new breed to change the oldies
the new breed to create unlimited future
whenever they are in the era
when in my first of all
when in hime's second sparks
even in third teddy bear's network
they all
are CRAZY
MADNESS
INSANE
P.S. May EC will always be greatest in team, and be MAD at all time!
the first taste of victory
your work have bore fruit
the fruit you all have waiting for so long
the fruit so sweet that to die for
the fruit called VICTORY
that fruit won't last long
too bad...
that fruit won't last long
so taste its sweetness before it's gone
defend a victory is way harder than achieve it
you work have just re-begun...
more and more challanges and difficulties will come at you
prepare at all time!!!
P.S. Kridabeksa, the black dancer!!! FIRST VICTORY ATTAINED!!!
the fruit you all have waiting for so long
the fruit so sweet that to die for
the fruit called VICTORY
that fruit won't last long
too bad...
that fruit won't last long
so taste its sweetness before it's gone
defend a victory is way harder than achieve it
you work have just re-begun...
more and more challanges and difficulties will come at you
prepare at all time!!!
P.S. Kridabeksa, the black dancer!!! FIRST VICTORY ATTAINED!!!
sudden visit, unexpected visit
my day was tiring
and i was weak
so tired of everything
feel too lazy to continue
but in the end of that day
a sudden and unexpected visit
a very very unexpected visit
which bring me back to my feet
thanks children
for your courage and blaster
have brought me back from misery
called the weakness and untastely heat
P.S. thank ananda, alief, sani, rachman and nunik, for visiting your teacher, bener2 gak nyangka lo. terharu wak
and i was weak
so tired of everything
feel too lazy to continue
but in the end of that day
a sudden and unexpected visit
a very very unexpected visit
which bring me back to my feet
thanks children
for your courage and blaster
have brought me back from misery
called the weakness and untastely heat
P.S. thank ananda, alief, sani, rachman and nunik, for visiting your teacher, bener2 gak nyangka lo. terharu wak
04 March 2009
Tired
i'm so tired
many things to plan
many many things to do
more and more many things to think
i'm truly so tired...
so tired to the point of boredom
laziness to continue my fortitude
sloth to even move one lid
God, give me strength and spirit
the fortitude to do the fundamentums
God, give me strength and spirit
the joy of love my job more than ever
P.S. indeed the path of my chosen is truly hard... can i stay true to the path i create myself, or be fallen in the middle of the road?
many things to plan
many many things to do
more and more many things to think
i'm truly so tired...
so tired to the point of boredom
laziness to continue my fortitude
sloth to even move one lid
God, give me strength and spirit
the fortitude to do the fundamentums
God, give me strength and spirit
the joy of love my job more than ever
P.S. indeed the path of my chosen is truly hard... can i stay true to the path i create myself, or be fallen in the middle of the road?
27 February 2009
Atra Legio First Battle
From throughout the land
combine fiery and young ones
to combine together
as Atra Legio
Atra means Black
Legio means Army
Atra Legio, The Black Army
come to rule and conquer all
Their first battle will decide everything
their first battle show their determination
their first battle will show their path
their first battle show their courage
in their first battle
the people cheering for them
their first battle is a win
but there are so many mistakes
but this is the first of many
keep fight my atra legio
my army
my children
P.S. Good job Atra Legio, not bad for a first fight, be prepare for further fight
combine fiery and young ones
to combine together
as Atra Legio
Atra means Black
Legio means Army
Atra Legio, The Black Army
come to rule and conquer all
Their first battle will decide everything
their first battle show their determination
their first battle will show their path
their first battle show their courage
in their first battle
the people cheering for them
their first battle is a win
but there are so many mistakes
but this is the first of many
keep fight my atra legio
my army
my children
P.S. Good job Atra Legio, not bad for a first fight, be prepare for further fight
26 February 2009
Happy Birthday, Yu Hime
one more year have passed once again
the wheel of fate and time spin one full turn
to reveal the infinite future and doors
for you to pick and immerse
may the year be great and greater
from previous and past
may the year give you joy and wisdom
as well as luck and prosperity
may God give you Joy
Joy for everyday you face
joy for everything you have
and Joy for everyone you love
May God give you wisdom
wisdom for knowledge and logic
wisdom for social and insight
wisdom of life and beyond
May there always an angel
to watch over you
to guide each step of the way
to guard you and keep you from all harm
May you bring love
May you bring happiness
Be loved in return
Til the end of your days
I can't give you anything
i can only give you prayers for your safety and joy
i can only give you this poem of admiration
i can only give you a song to brighten your day
may that be a good start of your new age
may a shining path of your future be opened
may dazzling days fill your days
may all the good thing always be with you
P.S. Happy birthday, too bad you're not here
the wheel of fate and time spin one full turn
to reveal the infinite future and doors
for you to pick and immerse
may the year be great and greater
from previous and past
may the year give you joy and wisdom
as well as luck and prosperity
may God give you Joy
Joy for everyday you face
joy for everything you have
and Joy for everyone you love
May God give you wisdom
wisdom for knowledge and logic
wisdom for social and insight
wisdom of life and beyond
May there always an angel
to watch over you
to guide each step of the way
to guard you and keep you from all harm
May you bring love
May you bring happiness
Be loved in return
Til the end of your days
I can't give you anything
i can only give you prayers for your safety and joy
i can only give you this poem of admiration
i can only give you a song to brighten your day
may that be a good start of your new age
may a shining path of your future be opened
may dazzling days fill your days
may all the good thing always be with you
P.S. Happy birthday, too bad you're not here
25 February 2009
ash
i am human
i am teacher
i am artist
i am leader
i am superior
i am great
i am dazzling
i am incredible
i am pathetic
i am useless
i am aimless
i am disabled
whatever i am
i am i
is that true?
is that what i am
today once again
human reminded of what they are
they are ashes
nothing more, nothing less
just ash
P.S. Wednesday of Ash (rabu abu) May God forgive all our Sins, and may us repent to all we've done. let's start the advent before easter (ADVENTUS)
i am teacher
i am artist
i am leader
i am superior
i am great
i am dazzling
i am incredible
i am pathetic
i am useless
i am aimless
i am disabled
whatever i am
i am i
is that true?
is that what i am
today once again
human reminded of what they are
they are ashes
nothing more, nothing less
just ash
P.S. Wednesday of Ash (rabu abu) May God forgive all our Sins, and may us repent to all we've done. let's start the advent before easter (ADVENTUS)
19 February 2009
generation gap
why sometimes i wonder
old and young fighting
fighting a battle
a battle that never end
young and old
children and parents
youth and elders
adolescent and adults
the young one are passionate
burn with fire to proof oneself
rise with spirit to challange everything
just want to try whether win or lost
the old one are patience
thinking with wisdom and insight
never plan a losing match
never really even plan a drastic measures
the young consider the old one too slow
conservative and boring
too strict to giving freedom
grip too hard and never let loose
the old consider the young one too reckless
never think of greater picture
never think of risk and error
and always looking for fun only
it's a battle
that shouldn't be happen
in a place as sacred as school
where we all should be as one
GOD!
what should i do?
i'm in a middle of battle
where i believe both have points
P.S. pressure of being leader is truly harsh... my team! let's stand firm
and brace it together!!!
old and young fighting
fighting a battle
a battle that never end
young and old
children and parents
youth and elders
adolescent and adults
the young one are passionate
burn with fire to proof oneself
rise with spirit to challange everything
just want to try whether win or lost
the old one are patience
thinking with wisdom and insight
never plan a losing match
never really even plan a drastic measures
the young consider the old one too slow
conservative and boring
too strict to giving freedom
grip too hard and never let loose
the old consider the young one too reckless
never think of greater picture
never think of risk and error
and always looking for fun only
it's a battle
that shouldn't be happen
in a place as sacred as school
where we all should be as one
GOD!
what should i do?
i'm in a middle of battle
where i believe both have points
P.S. pressure of being leader is truly harsh... my team! let's stand firm
and brace it together!!!
14 February 2009
an honor and a burden
all things come with two
a joy and an honor
and a burden of responsibilty
which both are equally large
the more people you know
the more you need to be senseful
the more year you pass
the more you need to be wiser
i just realise that i am no one but a child
who's given a task so vast and big
bigger than my wildest dreams
is this what i'm holding now?
internal development
network to outer world
quality and quantity inprovement
competition and extracurriculer
am i ready?
i believe God see that i am ready
but am i ready?
i want to believe, but am i truly ready?
with so so so many things
to think, to find
to construct, to create
to maintain, to protect
my burden are great...
thanks God, my team are also great
my trusted team
who i trust and believe without sway
P.S. to naldy, ard, lenny-imouto, agus. you are my best team so far, don't fail and fall on me... and the last person who are not on the team yet... hope you are willing to be part of my team...
a joy and an honor
and a burden of responsibilty
which both are equally large
the more people you know
the more you need to be senseful
the more year you pass
the more you need to be wiser
i just realise that i am no one but a child
who's given a task so vast and big
bigger than my wildest dreams
is this what i'm holding now?
internal development
network to outer world
quality and quantity inprovement
competition and extracurriculer
am i ready?
i believe God see that i am ready
but am i ready?
i want to believe, but am i truly ready?
with so so so many things
to think, to find
to construct, to create
to maintain, to protect
my burden are great...
thanks God, my team are also great
my trusted team
who i trust and believe without sway
P.S. to naldy, ard, lenny-imouto, agus. you are my best team so far, don't fail and fall on me... and the last person who are not on the team yet... hope you are willing to be part of my team...
13 February 2009
happy valentine
happy valentine to my mother
for your kind and caring actions
for every knowledge and expierence you give me
for loving me for eternity
happy valentine to Jikou
for teaching me the way of relaxing
for teaching me the mood to enjoy life
for teaching to see beyond all failures
happy valentine to Katherine
for your toughness and bravery
for your ignition of being a teacher
for your spirit that kindle my own
happy valentine to Agustina
for your leadership style which affect my own
for your quick thinking which alter mine
for your vast knowledge which facinate me to learn more
happy valentine to Lydia Angela
for your time encouraging mine
for standing firm to my egoism
for being there when i need it
happy valentine to Agustina Dewi
for being a friend to share my stories
for being a sister to give me solution
for being a baby which must be treated all the time
happy valentine to Bu Suzanna
for finding me my own talent
for inviting me to be a teacher
for teaching how to be a teacher
happy valentine to Lenny-Imouto
for listen for all my words
for lifting me from depth of hell
for spreading joy to my world
happy valentine to Yuanna
for being a smile whatever happen
for giving me a spirit when i lost them
for then treasured time
and last...
happy valentine to the Hime
for appearing in my life
i love you more than myself
whatever you think of me, i don't regretting meeting you
for your kind and caring actions
for every knowledge and expierence you give me
for loving me for eternity
happy valentine to Jikou
for teaching me the way of relaxing
for teaching me the mood to enjoy life
for teaching to see beyond all failures
happy valentine to Katherine
for your toughness and bravery
for your ignition of being a teacher
for your spirit that kindle my own
happy valentine to Agustina
for your leadership style which affect my own
for your quick thinking which alter mine
for your vast knowledge which facinate me to learn more
happy valentine to Lydia Angela
for your time encouraging mine
for standing firm to my egoism
for being there when i need it
happy valentine to Agustina Dewi
for being a friend to share my stories
for being a sister to give me solution
for being a baby which must be treated all the time
happy valentine to Bu Suzanna
for finding me my own talent
for inviting me to be a teacher
for teaching how to be a teacher
happy valentine to Lenny-Imouto
for listen for all my words
for lifting me from depth of hell
for spreading joy to my world
happy valentine to Yuanna
for being a smile whatever happen
for giving me a spirit when i lost them
for then treasured time
and last...
happy valentine to the Hime
for appearing in my life
i love you more than myself
whatever you think of me, i don't regretting meeting you
11 February 2009
a new trial in 11 days
in eleven days
a very short time
a very very short time
too short time to prepare for a great change
i will face another trial
a trial i never have before
a trial so vast and bore great responsibility
so challanging that i questions my own capabilities
i will soon face a trial
a trial of my own leadership
a trial of my own idealism
a trial of my own vision and determination
i hope i can fulfill my own role
i hope i can satisfied people hope on me
i hope i can bring much better to the future
i hope i can survive...
GOD!
i know this is a great plan
but, am i ready?
i don't really know
but if You think i am ready
then... let's give something to be remember of
i pray what i do in this school
will be the channel of Your Greatness
P.S.
Kajur kah... cepat wak...
semoga naldy, ardian, lenny-imouto and guru guru yang lain bisa bantu...
HAIZ!!!! FULL POWERED DCY1! LET'S RUMBLE!!!
a very short time
a very very short time
too short time to prepare for a great change
i will face another trial
a trial i never have before
a trial so vast and bore great responsibility
so challanging that i questions my own capabilities
i will soon face a trial
a trial of my own leadership
a trial of my own idealism
a trial of my own vision and determination
i hope i can fulfill my own role
i hope i can satisfied people hope on me
i hope i can bring much better to the future
i hope i can survive...
GOD!
i know this is a great plan
but, am i ready?
i don't really know
but if You think i am ready
then... let's give something to be remember of
i pray what i do in this school
will be the channel of Your Greatness
P.S.
Kajur kah... cepat wak...
semoga naldy, ardian, lenny-imouto and guru guru yang lain bisa bantu...
HAIZ!!!! FULL POWERED DCY1! LET'S RUMBLE!!!
07 February 2009
why i sometime think to negative?
why?
sometimes i feel depressed
depressed on my own failure
depressed on my own weakness
why?
i often never see my own strength
never see my bright side
never see my own shining nova
why?
sometimes i hate myself
for being weak
for being childish
why?
sometimes i loathe myself
for being useless
for being incapable
even though people tell me, i'm strong and independen
why sometimes i feel i desperately need to depend on someone?
even though people tell me, i'm funny and energetic
why sometimes i feel i'm gloomy and have no desire to even move?
even though people tell me, i'm useful and capable
why sometimes i feel pathetic and can't do anything well?
am i so afraid of failures?
am i so that afraid to lose?
but i must be strong!
God knows i'm not weak, useless and incapable
at least not that what i think of
i must be more positive
if myself already think of myself as useless
how can someone else think of myself as useful?
if myself already condemn myself with failure
how can someone else think of myself as a good teacher?
even God says to me just now
human failure is normal
but you must get back to your feet
or thou shalt never bore fruits anymore
i must stand firm and strong
for my students
for my brothers and sisters
for my family
for God
if i can't stand myself
how can i see myself as worthy of her?
a woman i love more than even myself
i feel ashamed of myown stupidity
oh well,
i think i really need scold sometimes
thank God, i have a sister
who can lift my miseries without failed
i truly thank You for her presence
our meet was accidental
but i believe You wish us to meet
in that such a way
sometimes i wonder
what are Your plan?
i can't understand it at all, not even a bit
bu i believe without sway, it's a beautiful plan
P.S. Mat 21:19 Dekat jalan Ia melihat pohon ara lalu pergi ke situ, tetapi Ia tidak mendapat apa-apa pada pohon itu selain daun-daun saja. Kata-Nya kepada pohon itu: "Engkau tidak akan berbuah lagi selama-lamanya!" Dan seketika itu juga keringlah pohon ara itu.
wew, itu keras wak... Thanks, God
sometimes i feel depressed
depressed on my own failure
depressed on my own weakness
why?
i often never see my own strength
never see my bright side
never see my own shining nova
why?
sometimes i hate myself
for being weak
for being childish
why?
sometimes i loathe myself
for being useless
for being incapable
even though people tell me, i'm strong and independen
why sometimes i feel i desperately need to depend on someone?
even though people tell me, i'm funny and energetic
why sometimes i feel i'm gloomy and have no desire to even move?
even though people tell me, i'm useful and capable
why sometimes i feel pathetic and can't do anything well?
am i so afraid of failures?
am i so that afraid to lose?
but i must be strong!
God knows i'm not weak, useless and incapable
at least not that what i think of
i must be more positive
if myself already think of myself as useless
how can someone else think of myself as useful?
if myself already condemn myself with failure
how can someone else think of myself as a good teacher?
even God says to me just now
human failure is normal
but you must get back to your feet
or thou shalt never bore fruits anymore
i must stand firm and strong
for my students
for my brothers and sisters
for my family
for God
if i can't stand myself
how can i see myself as worthy of her?
a woman i love more than even myself
i feel ashamed of myown stupidity
oh well,
i think i really need scold sometimes
thank God, i have a sister
who can lift my miseries without failed
i truly thank You for her presence
our meet was accidental
but i believe You wish us to meet
in that such a way
sometimes i wonder
what are Your plan?
i can't understand it at all, not even a bit
bu i believe without sway, it's a beautiful plan
P.S. Mat 21:19 Dekat jalan Ia melihat pohon ara lalu pergi ke situ, tetapi Ia tidak mendapat apa-apa pada pohon itu selain daun-daun saja. Kata-Nya kepada pohon itu: "Engkau tidak akan berbuah lagi selama-lamanya!" Dan seketika itu juga keringlah pohon ara itu.
wew, itu keras wak... Thanks, God
06 February 2009
back to the dance floor
after 7 years of vacuum
i'm return to the floor
the floor of sweat and rhythm
the floor i thought i've lost forever
in that fateful place
in the place that have given me a lot
i'm once given another shot on dance floor
to young dancer to understand the joy of dancing
my stiff and stained movement
indeed is not suitable to dance anymore
but at least i can still enjoy the dance
as i am did 7 years ago
P.S. DANCE!!!!!! it's feel good to dance again!!!!!!
i'm return to the floor
the floor of sweat and rhythm
the floor i thought i've lost forever
in that fateful place
in the place that have given me a lot
i'm once given another shot on dance floor
to young dancer to understand the joy of dancing
my stiff and stained movement
indeed is not suitable to dance anymore
but at least i can still enjoy the dance
as i am did 7 years ago
P.S. DANCE!!!!!! it's feel good to dance again!!!!!!
05 February 2009
bridge over two worlds
the two worlds spanning far and beyond
the one world reaching out without rest
the one other is not known either far or not
the two worlds are spanning to far
but a bridge have settled between them
a bridge so little and so fragile
but firm and strong
bridging both of two worlds
the bridge understand both world
the bridge know what happen
but the bridge just silent
as silent as a hill
P.S. thanks and sorry to lenny-imouto, and please don't feel that strange, it's... normal. kakaka
the one world reaching out without rest
the one other is not known either far or not
the two worlds are spanning to far
but a bridge have settled between them
a bridge so little and so fragile
but firm and strong
bridging both of two worlds
the bridge understand both world
the bridge know what happen
but the bridge just silent
as silent as a hill
P.S. thanks and sorry to lenny-imouto, and please don't feel that strange, it's... normal. kakaka
04 February 2009
what should i do then
in few moment again
i will be a leader of a new team
a team of teachers
teaching a everlasting mutating subject
what should i do then
in few moment again
i must reach out for more team member
i know a candidate i can trust and rely on
but where to start?
what should i do then
in a near future
i must choose my investment priority
a shelter or a vehicle
which one first?
what should i do then
in a near future
i might self-destruct myself
i might asking my own dedication
i might be sway with many temptations
what should i do then
in the future
i will find a partner God see as equal
i will have the future generation as my responsibilty
i will have the joy of meeting and sorrow of parting
what should i do then
in the future not that far
i will face another teast of God
test of brain and heart
test that not i am to decide
what should i do then
P.S. the pace is faster and faster now, move FASTER than then pace!!!! FULL POWERED DCY1 ROARING AWAY!!!!! but is it enough for me to prepare myself in one month? i wonder...
i will be a leader of a new team
a team of teachers
teaching a everlasting mutating subject
what should i do then
in few moment again
i must reach out for more team member
i know a candidate i can trust and rely on
but where to start?
what should i do then
in a near future
i must choose my investment priority
a shelter or a vehicle
which one first?
what should i do then
in a near future
i might self-destruct myself
i might asking my own dedication
i might be sway with many temptations
what should i do then
in the future
i will find a partner God see as equal
i will have the future generation as my responsibilty
i will have the joy of meeting and sorrow of parting
what should i do then
in the future not that far
i will face another teast of God
test of brain and heart
test that not i am to decide
what should i do then
P.S. the pace is faster and faster now, move FASTER than then pace!!!! FULL POWERED DCY1 ROARING AWAY!!!!! but is it enough for me to prepare myself in one month? i wonder...
30 January 2009
mouth of mine
i have lotsa trouble with my mouth
i used harsh and rude words
i lied and spit anger on whim
i scold and break loved one's heart with my mouth
never i though i have another problem with my mouth
simple actually, but terribly important
i never really concern about my physical trait
but i realized, that i must neglect them too
because of my ignorance
it cost me a toll
because of my pride
it cause me a fall
i must brace myself
to face one person
i fear and at the same time, hate
but i truly need them...
i was surprised to know the fixing details
but i deserve it
now i have walk on the first level
and still 2 more to go...
P.S. my dentist really give a task to fulfilled before my next year... fixing my teeth!!!
i used harsh and rude words
i lied and spit anger on whim
i scold and break loved one's heart with my mouth
never i though i have another problem with my mouth
simple actually, but terribly important
i never really concern about my physical trait
but i realized, that i must neglect them too
because of my ignorance
it cost me a toll
because of my pride
it cause me a fall
i must brace myself
to face one person
i fear and at the same time, hate
but i truly need them...
i was surprised to know the fixing details
but i deserve it
now i have walk on the first level
and still 2 more to go...
P.S. my dentist really give a task to fulfilled before my next year... fixing my teeth!!!
29 January 2009
wait for another moon
moon are entity that appear every night
but a full moon only appear 1 night only
i have wait for every night for this full moon
but in the fateful day, i missed that moon
what can i do then?
shouting for the moon to return?
no, what can i do is only
waiting for a another moon...
P.S. another month kah...
well, a bit distressful news, but i understand
so, take care, enjoy your time
i'll stay here, for another moon
but a full moon only appear 1 night only
i have wait for every night for this full moon
but in the fateful day, i missed that moon
what can i do then?
shouting for the moon to return?
no, what can i do is only
waiting for a another moon...
P.S. another month kah...
well, a bit distressful news, but i understand
so, take care, enjoy your time
i'll stay here, for another moon
27 January 2009
curses of the 12 planes
after God created the 12 planes
Devil also spawns 12 planes
all his creations based on envious
of God's creations
on the highest plane
there live the restless undeads
their king, the vampires, Marguel
the ultimate axe of revenge
their curse is their heart
their curse is the spirit of vengeance
the curse of loathe and hurt
the curse to not being able to forgive
on the second plane
there live the crimson fiends
their lord, the archfiend, Labiel
the blood claw of Hell
their curse is the brain
their curse is sinister and slickness
the curse of deceiving
the curse to fools every creatures
on the third plane
there live the noisy goblins
their captain, the red cap, Araktuk
the brown bow of poisons
their curse is the heart
their curse is envious
the curse of thievery and robbery
the curse to never create anything
on the fourth plane
there live the ghastly spectres
their leader, the yellow baron, Illiest
the rusted cane of styx
their curse is the brain
their curse is irresposibility
the curse of run away from truth
the curse to hiding forever from future
on the fifth plane
there live the fallen treants
their king, old one, Hijias
the blistering spines of diseases
their curse is the heart
their curse is despair
the curse of pessimist and sorrow
the curse to live in miseries
on the sixth plane
there live the fearsome hydras
their ring lord, the first, Golion
the scales of amethyst and sapphire
their curse is the brain
their curse is arrogance
the curse of proud of own brilliance
the curse to never see truth beyond all
on the seventh plane
there live the sly chimaeras
their king, the mozaic manticore, Essentia
the hooked blade of venom
their curse is the heart
their curse is greed
the curse of never see other than money
the curse to claims all fortune as his
on the eighth plane
there live the gluttonous lizardmen
their pack leader, the purple scale king, Banka
the hunters of the deep
their curse is the brain
their curse is sloth
the curse of weak willed
the curse to never learn anything
on the ninth plane
there live the hideous Djinns
their supreme leader, the meteor marid, Nouda
the purging rocks of destruction
their curse is the heart
their curse is solitary
the curse of believe at nothing
the curse to gather loneliness without hope
on the tenth plane
there live the conceited wizards
their king, the dark wizards, Holterot
the Bronze Wand of confusion
their curse is the brain
their curse is blinded mind
the curse of too proud of their own wisdoms
the curse to never aware of worse danger
on the eleventh plane
there live the dirty trolls
their lord, the big arms, Algala
the mask of merciless
their curse is the heart
their curse is egoism
the curse of never believe in oneself
the curse to always rely on other
on the last plane
there live the berserk giants
their king, the titan, Domos
the Steel helmet of pain
their curse is the brain
their curse is madness
the curse of uncontrollable
the curse to destroy anything
the Devil see his creation match God's
but He still wants more
the human plane also need curse
the most terrible among all curse
then on the thirteenth plane
there live the fragile humans
they have no king nor queen
but one simple lad, Von Tersuesy
his curse is the Heart and Brain
the last curse is the curse of hatred
the curse of detest and abhorrence
the curse to making all planes crying in sadness
all curses has given away
the devil satisfied for now
all planes have recieve their curses
and all are ready to devour God's gift
P.S. which curse do you possess? even if you have all 12 curses, i hope you don't have the last
curse... the most horrible curse
Devil also spawns 12 planes
all his creations based on envious
of God's creations
on the highest plane
there live the restless undeads
their king, the vampires, Marguel
the ultimate axe of revenge
their curse is their heart
their curse is the spirit of vengeance
the curse of loathe and hurt
the curse to not being able to forgive
on the second plane
there live the crimson fiends
their lord, the archfiend, Labiel
the blood claw of Hell
their curse is the brain
their curse is sinister and slickness
the curse of deceiving
the curse to fools every creatures
on the third plane
there live the noisy goblins
their captain, the red cap, Araktuk
the brown bow of poisons
their curse is the heart
their curse is envious
the curse of thievery and robbery
the curse to never create anything
on the fourth plane
there live the ghastly spectres
their leader, the yellow baron, Illiest
the rusted cane of styx
their curse is the brain
their curse is irresposibility
the curse of run away from truth
the curse to hiding forever from future
on the fifth plane
there live the fallen treants
their king, old one, Hijias
the blistering spines of diseases
their curse is the heart
their curse is despair
the curse of pessimist and sorrow
the curse to live in miseries
on the sixth plane
there live the fearsome hydras
their ring lord, the first, Golion
the scales of amethyst and sapphire
their curse is the brain
their curse is arrogance
the curse of proud of own brilliance
the curse to never see truth beyond all
on the seventh plane
there live the sly chimaeras
their king, the mozaic manticore, Essentia
the hooked blade of venom
their curse is the heart
their curse is greed
the curse of never see other than money
the curse to claims all fortune as his
on the eighth plane
there live the gluttonous lizardmen
their pack leader, the purple scale king, Banka
the hunters of the deep
their curse is the brain
their curse is sloth
the curse of weak willed
the curse to never learn anything
on the ninth plane
there live the hideous Djinns
their supreme leader, the meteor marid, Nouda
the purging rocks of destruction
their curse is the heart
their curse is solitary
the curse of believe at nothing
the curse to gather loneliness without hope
on the tenth plane
there live the conceited wizards
their king, the dark wizards, Holterot
the Bronze Wand of confusion
their curse is the brain
their curse is blinded mind
the curse of too proud of their own wisdoms
the curse to never aware of worse danger
on the eleventh plane
there live the dirty trolls
their lord, the big arms, Algala
the mask of merciless
their curse is the heart
their curse is egoism
the curse of never believe in oneself
the curse to always rely on other
on the last plane
there live the berserk giants
their king, the titan, Domos
the Steel helmet of pain
their curse is the brain
their curse is madness
the curse of uncontrollable
the curse to destroy anything
the Devil see his creation match God's
but He still wants more
the human plane also need curse
the most terrible among all curse
then on the thirteenth plane
there live the fragile humans
they have no king nor queen
but one simple lad, Von Tersuesy
his curse is the Heart and Brain
the last curse is the curse of hatred
the curse of detest and abhorrence
the curse to making all planes crying in sadness
all curses has given away
the devil satisfied for now
all planes have recieve their curses
and all are ready to devour God's gift
P.S. which curse do you possess? even if you have all 12 curses, i hope you don't have the last
curse... the most horrible curse
24 January 2009
gifts of the 12 planes
in the beginning of time
there are 12 planes
ruled by one race
one undisputed king
on the highest plane
there live the holy angels
their king, the archangel, Gabriel
the supreme shield of divine
their gift is their heart
their gift is the will to always believe
the gift of compassion and mercy
the gift to being able to forgive
on the second plane
there live the dark demons
their lord, the archdemon, Mennon
the black thorn sword of corrupt
their gift is the brain
their gift is the strategic and tactic
the gift of cunning mind
the gift to plan every action
on the third plane
there live the gentle elven
their queen, the elvenbrand, Galadriel
the golden bow of truth
their gift is the heart
their gift is the way of expression
the gift of art and appreciation
the gift to create poems and songs
on the fourth plane
there live the unknown voids
their leader, the black herald, Viel
the unfathomable orb of magic
their gift is the brain
their gift is the long vision
the gift of far sight and thinking
the gift to create unlimited numbers of future
on the fifth plane
there live the wide array of beasts
their pack leader, the king of forest, Optimus
the piercing claw of nature
their gift is the heart
their gift is the optimism
the gift of spirit and unbreakable
the spirit to life all miseries
on the sixth plane
there live the mighty dragons
their ring lord, the first, Ordin
the wing of flames and amber
their gift is the brain
their gift is the logic
the gift of always think with realism
the gift to see truth clouded by riddles
on the seventh plane
there live the proud demihumans
their king, the velvet cape, Alcar
the curved horn of diamond
their gift is the heart
their gift is the luck
the gift of always escape from harm
the gift to bring fortune to all
on the eightth plane
there live the mysterious mermans
their queen, the shining scale, Aria
the dazzling mermaiden of the deep
their gift is the brain
their gift is the skill
the gift of quick wit
the gift to learn everthing fast
on the ninth plane
there live the sweet fairies
their pride leader, the soft wing, Ellenny
the rainbow scarf of the night
their gift is the heart
their gift is faith
the gift of believe without delay
the gift to gather trust without failed
on the tenth plane
there live the curious dwarves
their king, the volcanion, Varthian
the Silver hammer of destruction
their gift is the brain
their gift is the sceptism
the gift of vigilance
the gift to always be aware and ready
on the eleventh plane
there live the shy orcs
their shaman, the third eye, Urugu
the staff of the forgotten lore
their gift is the heart
their gift is the patience
the gift of endurance
the gift to never give up
on the last plane
there live the silent golems
their king, the big rock, Kathiar
the stone armor of invisibility
their gift is the brain
their gift is the cold spirit
the gift of holding emotions
the gift to survive against sadness and pain
the God see their gifts are good
but He still need one more
one more plane to have the biggest gift
the most beautiful among all gift
then on the thirteenth plane
there live the fragile humans
they have no king nor queen
but one simple maiden, Juliana Maduny
her gift is the Heart and Brain
the last gift is the gift of love
the gift of care and adoration
the gift to making all planes dancing in joy
all gifts has given away
the God pleased and satisfied
all planes have recieve their gifts
and all are perfect and beautiful
P.S. which gift you want most? even if you have all 12 gifts, you won't be complete without the last gift... the greatest gift
there are 12 planes
ruled by one race
one undisputed king
on the highest plane
there live the holy angels
their king, the archangel, Gabriel
the supreme shield of divine
their gift is their heart
their gift is the will to always believe
the gift of compassion and mercy
the gift to being able to forgive
on the second plane
there live the dark demons
their lord, the archdemon, Mennon
the black thorn sword of corrupt
their gift is the brain
their gift is the strategic and tactic
the gift of cunning mind
the gift to plan every action
on the third plane
there live the gentle elven
their queen, the elvenbrand, Galadriel
the golden bow of truth
their gift is the heart
their gift is the way of expression
the gift of art and appreciation
the gift to create poems and songs
on the fourth plane
there live the unknown voids
their leader, the black herald, Viel
the unfathomable orb of magic
their gift is the brain
their gift is the long vision
the gift of far sight and thinking
the gift to create unlimited numbers of future
on the fifth plane
there live the wide array of beasts
their pack leader, the king of forest, Optimus
the piercing claw of nature
their gift is the heart
their gift is the optimism
the gift of spirit and unbreakable
the spirit to life all miseries
on the sixth plane
there live the mighty dragons
their ring lord, the first, Ordin
the wing of flames and amber
their gift is the brain
their gift is the logic
the gift of always think with realism
the gift to see truth clouded by riddles
on the seventh plane
there live the proud demihumans
their king, the velvet cape, Alcar
the curved horn of diamond
their gift is the heart
their gift is the luck
the gift of always escape from harm
the gift to bring fortune to all
on the eightth plane
there live the mysterious mermans
their queen, the shining scale, Aria
the dazzling mermaiden of the deep
their gift is the brain
their gift is the skill
the gift of quick wit
the gift to learn everthing fast
on the ninth plane
there live the sweet fairies
their pride leader, the soft wing, Ellenny
the rainbow scarf of the night
their gift is the heart
their gift is faith
the gift of believe without delay
the gift to gather trust without failed
on the tenth plane
there live the curious dwarves
their king, the volcanion, Varthian
the Silver hammer of destruction
their gift is the brain
their gift is the sceptism
the gift of vigilance
the gift to always be aware and ready
on the eleventh plane
there live the shy orcs
their shaman, the third eye, Urugu
the staff of the forgotten lore
their gift is the heart
their gift is the patience
the gift of endurance
the gift to never give up
on the last plane
there live the silent golems
their king, the big rock, Kathiar
the stone armor of invisibility
their gift is the brain
their gift is the cold spirit
the gift of holding emotions
the gift to survive against sadness and pain
the God see their gifts are good
but He still need one more
one more plane to have the biggest gift
the most beautiful among all gift
then on the thirteenth plane
there live the fragile humans
they have no king nor queen
but one simple maiden, Juliana Maduny
her gift is the Heart and Brain
the last gift is the gift of love
the gift of care and adoration
the gift to making all planes dancing in joy
all gifts has given away
the God pleased and satisfied
all planes have recieve their gifts
and all are perfect and beautiful
P.S. which gift you want most? even if you have all 12 gifts, you won't be complete without the last gift... the greatest gift
23 January 2009
too long in the land of avalon
i have a land i visit ever night
the anme of that land is avalon
the realm of might and magic
the plane of undefined and greatness
in that land
i encountered joy
joy of seeing my friends
brother, sisters and hime
in that land
i fight and lead
an army i never have
enemies i never meet
in that land
i saw sorrow
sights that pains me most
my own desperation
in that land
i found hopes
hopes that bring my optimism
hopes that my mindset better
too bad, i can't stay long in that land
every sunrise i must return to plane of earth
realm of human and science
the land of realism
this week, i have stay too long in that land
and must pay some tolls on my real world
it's been a strange and slow and sleepy week
i hope next week will be much much better
P.S. jangan bangun kesianganan lagi... GANBATTE KURASAI WATASHII!!!!!
the anme of that land is avalon
the realm of might and magic
the plane of undefined and greatness
in that land
i encountered joy
joy of seeing my friends
brother, sisters and hime
in that land
i fight and lead
an army i never have
enemies i never meet
in that land
i saw sorrow
sights that pains me most
my own desperation
in that land
i found hopes
hopes that bring my optimism
hopes that my mindset better
too bad, i can't stay long in that land
every sunrise i must return to plane of earth
realm of human and science
the land of realism
this week, i have stay too long in that land
and must pay some tolls on my real world
it's been a strange and slow and sleepy week
i hope next week will be much much better
P.S. jangan bangun kesianganan lagi... GANBATTE KURASAI WATASHII!!!!!
21 January 2009
stay safe on the way home
today she left to go home
by the air she will go back
to where she come from
to enjoy bliss of hometown
i pray for your safe journey
i pray from your joyous moments there
i pray from your power to spreading happiness
and also i pray for your safe journey back
be aware always that you will soon enter the world of parents
the world that you and i are not ready
but we'll do it anyway, be a mini parents
for children we don't even know when we have them
but forget those things first
and enjoy your vacation
i can only wish for your eternal joy
hope that you will always happy
P.S. ja na lenny-imouto, hope you back soon
by the air she will go back
to where she come from
to enjoy bliss of hometown
i pray for your safe journey
i pray from your joyous moments there
i pray from your power to spreading happiness
and also i pray for your safe journey back
be aware always that you will soon enter the world of parents
the world that you and i are not ready
but we'll do it anyway, be a mini parents
for children we don't even know when we have them
but forget those things first
and enjoy your vacation
i can only wish for your eternal joy
hope that you will always happy
P.S. ja na lenny-imouto, hope you back soon
19 January 2009
happy brithday dear Lenny-imouto
the age have risen again another year
may this risen will also risen all is good
may this risen will heighten your level
may this risen will affect your life
may the wisdom be with you always
wisdom of insight to watch everything
wisdom of understanding everyone and everything
wisdom of wits to watch the far with ease
may the fortune be with you always
fortune of gold and pearl beneath your feet
fortune of honor and pride as your dignity
fortune of bliss and peace in your heart
may the joy be with you always
joy of being able to play and live
joy of never being alone
joy that you spread to all surrounding you
i pray that there always an angel
to watch over you, to guide your steps
to guard from all harms
to calm the heart from any discords
may this year be better that before
and the future opens up wide
may this year all be great and exciting
and the life opens up grand
P.S. for lenny-imouto, hope you like it.
may this risen will also risen all is good
may this risen will heighten your level
may this risen will affect your life
may the wisdom be with you always
wisdom of insight to watch everything
wisdom of understanding everyone and everything
wisdom of wits to watch the far with ease
may the fortune be with you always
fortune of gold and pearl beneath your feet
fortune of honor and pride as your dignity
fortune of bliss and peace in your heart
may the joy be with you always
joy of being able to play and live
joy of never being alone
joy that you spread to all surrounding you
i pray that there always an angel
to watch over you, to guide your steps
to guard from all harms
to calm the heart from any discords
may this year be better that before
and the future opens up wide
may this year all be great and exciting
and the life opens up grand
P.S. for lenny-imouto, hope you like it.
17 January 2009
keep it simple
things, the more you think of them
it will create new problem
it always do, create new burden
if you think more than it should be
may be you simplify your mind
simplify the way of thought
simplify the flow of ideas
simplify the intricate logic
with simplification mind
you can lessen you mind burden
less thought and less thinking
just keep it simple
things that unclear yet
things that undetermined yet
things that still have unlimited chances
things that have lot of blurred alternatives
those uncertainties don't need more thinking
those will only bring sorrow and depression
perhaps i must let go all of them
just keep it simple
strange...
just three words
can make all my burden dissapearred in few hours
my regret is, why i didn't realize this sooner
P.S.
thx, your message last night, heal me more than you can imagine...
i should deal more with fact...
what is the facts?
1) there are so many things that i need to done by this monday(proposal, soal, ultah lenny, EC amazing race 2, PKL help, DB module, CV masuk MHS... WEW!!)
2) there are so many student i need to teach (ITA, ITC, jarkom, hci, mtk, p1, mis)
3) i have truly love her unconditionally (maybe i have fallen too deep, but is that a mistake? definitely not, i never regret it, and whatever happen, i still will and shall not regret it)
that it for now... pretty good
maybe i should return to my old strategem
DEAL WITH IT WHEN IT HAPPENS!!! back to life, FULL POWERED DCY1!!!!
it will create new problem
it always do, create new burden
if you think more than it should be
may be you simplify your mind
simplify the way of thought
simplify the flow of ideas
simplify the intricate logic
with simplification mind
you can lessen you mind burden
less thought and less thinking
just keep it simple
things that unclear yet
things that undetermined yet
things that still have unlimited chances
things that have lot of blurred alternatives
those uncertainties don't need more thinking
those will only bring sorrow and depression
perhaps i must let go all of them
just keep it simple
strange...
just three words
can make all my burden dissapearred in few hours
my regret is, why i didn't realize this sooner
P.S.
thx, your message last night, heal me more than you can imagine...
i should deal more with fact...
what is the facts?
1) there are so many things that i need to done by this monday(proposal, soal, ultah lenny, EC amazing race 2, PKL help, DB module, CV masuk MHS... WEW!!)
2) there are so many student i need to teach (ITA, ITC, jarkom, hci, mtk, p1, mis)
3) i have truly love her unconditionally (maybe i have fallen too deep, but is that a mistake? definitely not, i never regret it, and whatever happen, i still will and shall not regret it)
that it for now... pretty good
maybe i should return to my old strategem
DEAL WITH IT WHEN IT HAPPENS!!! back to life, FULL POWERED DCY1!!!!
16 January 2009
love
love
cinta
ai
Liebe
amore
koigokoro
aimez
beminnen
there are million of words
that describing love
but none of them...
tell me... what is love...
i am wondering
is this love?
but what is this i felt?
being in joy and pain at the same time...
i wonder what is love
what i seek is not knowledge
but what should i seek?
i am blind and deaf
i am sometimes wondered
what it feels to be in loved
what it feels to be loved
and what it feels to be lover
people said it's the joy of youth
people said it's the happiness of man
people said it's a needs of human being
people said it's beautiful...
but...
i still confused
what is love...
what i felt
is love truly joyful? but why sometimes i feel sorrow because of love?
is love truly happiness? but why sometimes i feel sadness because of love?
is love truly needs? but why sometimes i feel desparate because of love?
is love truly beautiful? but why sometimes i feel pain because of love?
it is a fact, that i am now in love
it is a fact, that i feel joy and happiness
it is a fact, that it is make life beautiful
but, it's a fact, that sometimes... i felt down because of love
i don't want to be desperate because of love
i don't want to be my old self
pitiful and pathetic being
i really don't want to return to my old self
GOD! what should i do?
i keep thinking the worst of being in love
i keep retracing my old path
i know what lies in the end of that path
the path only goes to
pain...
sadness...
desperation...
hatred...
hurt...
tear...
howl...
lifeless...
spiritless...
i know what lies ahead
what i wished...
so i can endure wht lies ahead
the half chance i have
the half possibility...
2 doors...
which one door reach the my old path
and the other open new path i never been to
whichever door she open up for me...
whichever...
i just hope for the door she open
will not lead to our demise
but if...
she open the door i fear most
i hope the path will be short
and i reclaim my current self
i know myself
this time i have make mistake
i have fallen to far in love
a mistake that i did in the past
a mistake that i should aware of
a mistake of all other mistakes
but still i have fallen into the same state
without realising it, i again, have fall too far in love
even worse, i never fallen this deep
i afraid... i can't survive...
i really afraid... that my own mistake
will be the architect of my own destruction
it's the two doors
is there possibility of other doors?
i'm afraid... it's almost invisibly
i'm afraid... this is my choice
as the tme draw closer
i know i can't run
what i can... is face her
and try to accept the best and the worst
sometimes i wonder
why i think bad things on me
why i can't be always optimistic in life
why i feel fear...
my surrounding never see me as pessimist
my brother and sister see me as a leader
a brave and never give up policy
smart, unique and never show weaknesses
my family see me as a future
a new star that will bring proud to the family
the road that will bring my brothers to better future
the first grandchildren that will continue family's legacy
my students see me as a guide
a guide that will bring them closer to knowledges
a big brother who will teach them about life
moral principia and way of life
but none of them...
really know about the fragile me
about my fear... darkest fears
about my own trauma... hatred... anger
why i write this poem today
i also do not know
i never pour so may into my writings
so many of my feeling
what i want to achieve from write this
i also do not know
what motivated my fingers to run these words
i also do not know
do i wish to be understand?
do my existance wish to be realised?
why i feel like a loner
even when i surrounded by all those around me?
i never know...
perhaps it's my nature to be a loner
perhaps it's just a trick of mind
perhaps i'm not complete without her
i don't know
God, will i know?
will i know myself someday?
will i ever will know?
cinta
ai
Liebe
amore
koigokoro
aimez
beminnen
there are million of words
that describing love
but none of them...
tell me... what is love...
i am wondering
is this love?
but what is this i felt?
being in joy and pain at the same time...
i wonder what is love
what i seek is not knowledge
but what should i seek?
i am blind and deaf
i am sometimes wondered
what it feels to be in loved
what it feels to be loved
and what it feels to be lover
people said it's the joy of youth
people said it's the happiness of man
people said it's a needs of human being
people said it's beautiful...
but...
i still confused
what is love...
what i felt
is love truly joyful? but why sometimes i feel sorrow because of love?
is love truly happiness? but why sometimes i feel sadness because of love?
is love truly needs? but why sometimes i feel desparate because of love?
is love truly beautiful? but why sometimes i feel pain because of love?
it is a fact, that i am now in love
it is a fact, that i feel joy and happiness
it is a fact, that it is make life beautiful
but, it's a fact, that sometimes... i felt down because of love
i don't want to be desperate because of love
i don't want to be my old self
pitiful and pathetic being
i really don't want to return to my old self
GOD! what should i do?
i keep thinking the worst of being in love
i keep retracing my old path
i know what lies in the end of that path
the path only goes to
pain...
sadness...
desperation...
hatred...
hurt...
tear...
howl...
lifeless...
spiritless...
i know what lies ahead
what i wished...
so i can endure wht lies ahead
the half chance i have
the half possibility...
2 doors...
which one door reach the my old path
and the other open new path i never been to
whichever door she open up for me...
whichever...
i just hope for the door she open
will not lead to our demise
but if...
she open the door i fear most
i hope the path will be short
and i reclaim my current self
i know myself
this time i have make mistake
i have fallen to far in love
a mistake that i did in the past
a mistake that i should aware of
a mistake of all other mistakes
but still i have fallen into the same state
without realising it, i again, have fall too far in love
even worse, i never fallen this deep
i afraid... i can't survive...
i really afraid... that my own mistake
will be the architect of my own destruction
it's the two doors
is there possibility of other doors?
i'm afraid... it's almost invisibly
i'm afraid... this is my choice
as the tme draw closer
i know i can't run
what i can... is face her
and try to accept the best and the worst
sometimes i wonder
why i think bad things on me
why i can't be always optimistic in life
why i feel fear...
my surrounding never see me as pessimist
my brother and sister see me as a leader
a brave and never give up policy
smart, unique and never show weaknesses
my family see me as a future
a new star that will bring proud to the family
the road that will bring my brothers to better future
the first grandchildren that will continue family's legacy
my students see me as a guide
a guide that will bring them closer to knowledges
a big brother who will teach them about life
moral principia and way of life
but none of them...
really know about the fragile me
about my fear... darkest fears
about my own trauma... hatred... anger
why i write this poem today
i also do not know
i never pour so may into my writings
so many of my feeling
what i want to achieve from write this
i also do not know
what motivated my fingers to run these words
i also do not know
do i wish to be understand?
do my existance wish to be realised?
why i feel like a loner
even when i surrounded by all those around me?
i never know...
perhaps it's my nature to be a loner
perhaps it's just a trick of mind
perhaps i'm not complete without her
i don't know
God, will i know?
will i know myself someday?
will i ever will know?
15 January 2009
nightmare in life
the life is the day
the life is the night
sometimes in the life, there are days
sometimes in the life, there nights
one must ready for all
one must ready for everthing
the wheel will turn eternally
without stopping, without delaying
the joy of happiness
the delight soul
the bliss of peace
the life on day
the fear of fright
the sorrowful tear
the ugliness of hatred
the life on night
prepare for all
ready to raise
hold on fall
prepare for all
it's hard
it's very hard
but that is life
life of day and night
P.S. whatever happen... be strong... be strong... or you'll never raise again to your feet... stay strong and be strong of all time. be prepared...
the life is the night
sometimes in the life, there are days
sometimes in the life, there nights
one must ready for all
one must ready for everthing
the wheel will turn eternally
without stopping, without delaying
the joy of happiness
the delight soul
the bliss of peace
the life on day
the fear of fright
the sorrowful tear
the ugliness of hatred
the life on night
prepare for all
ready to raise
hold on fall
prepare for all
it's hard
it's very hard
but that is life
life of day and night
P.S. whatever happen... be strong... be strong... or you'll never raise again to your feet... stay strong and be strong of all time. be prepared...
14 January 2009
water always flow down...
even if the sun destroyed
even if the planet stop rotating
even if the earth stop spinning
the water always flow down...
even if the rain failed to fall
even if the wind failed to blow
even if the fire failed to burst
the water always flow down
even if my heart stop beating
even if the star burns away
even if the universe dissappeared
the water always flow down
P.S. some things couldn''t be change... even with a will power only... some things just can't be changed... i wonder if this poem will ever be proven wrong... i want to believe that there are chance... this poem is wrong
even if the planet stop rotating
even if the earth stop spinning
the water always flow down...
even if the rain failed to fall
even if the wind failed to blow
even if the fire failed to burst
the water always flow down
even if my heart stop beating
even if the star burns away
even if the universe dissappeared
the water always flow down
P.S. some things couldn''t be change... even with a will power only... some things just can't be changed... i wonder if this poem will ever be proven wrong... i want to believe that there are chance... this poem is wrong
13 January 2009
solitary is just a trick of mind
loneliness is alone
what is alone?
do everything by self
or feel everything by oneself
loneliness is actually
a trick of mind
you are never alone
even when you are alone
you're not alone
because you are not
there are people inside you
who give you power
you're not alone
because you are not
there are many friends inside you
who give you courage
you're not alone
because you are not
there are so many friends inside you
who give you spirit
you're never alone
so please
necer ever again
think you are alone...
P.S. thanks len... maybe it just a trick of mind... or a whim or a pout of a childish me... perhaps i need to change a bit in my loner side... maekah...
what is alone?
do everything by self
or feel everything by oneself
loneliness is actually
a trick of mind
you are never alone
even when you are alone
you're not alone
because you are not
there are people inside you
who give you power
you're not alone
because you are not
there are many friends inside you
who give you courage
you're not alone
because you are not
there are so many friends inside you
who give you spirit
you're never alone
so please
necer ever again
think you are alone...
P.S. thanks len... maybe it just a trick of mind... or a whim or a pout of a childish me... perhaps i need to change a bit in my loner side... maekah...
10 January 2009
surrounded but alone
i am always surrounded
by people
by questions
by problems
i am surrounded by poeple
poeple who have questions
people who have problems
people who need my helps
but when they have no questions
when they have no more problems
they're gone...
busy with themselves
and then i am alone
waiting for more questions
waiting for more troubles
to create my own appearance
why i am always surrounded
but deep in my heart
i always feel i'm no one
i'm alone...
is there anyone
who can be with me
just be with me...
the me as i am?
that should be not hard
but it is hard
harder than what i expect
harder than what i predict
P.S. this is when i am alone where everthing leave me alone... to do everything... alone... why this pattern didn't change in all these years... it's always end up like this... alone... alone and always alone in the end...
by people
by questions
by problems
i am surrounded by poeple
poeple who have questions
people who have problems
people who need my helps
but when they have no questions
when they have no more problems
they're gone...
busy with themselves
and then i am alone
waiting for more questions
waiting for more troubles
to create my own appearance
why i am always surrounded
but deep in my heart
i always feel i'm no one
i'm alone...
is there anyone
who can be with me
just be with me...
the me as i am?
that should be not hard
but it is hard
harder than what i expect
harder than what i predict
P.S. this is when i am alone where everthing leave me alone... to do everything... alone... why this pattern didn't change in all these years... it's always end up like this... alone... alone and always alone in the end...
09 January 2009
rex and regina
rex is a king
a king of elvenland
elf of the deep forest
forest of the leaves canopy
regina is a queen
a queen of merland
merman of the deep ocean
ocean of the rainbow creatures
both of them have met
2 of so different kind
2 of so different personality
2 of so different sides
what will happen when the 2 collides
will the universe shakes in fear
or dance in harmony
that will be decided... soon
heaven have destined this encounter
the gift of our sweet encounter
wingsbeat of butterflies
and sweet scent of bellflower
the two swords have crossed
the two paths have combined
the two strings of fate have tied
i hope those two won't come apart
P.S. this is when i feel not that confidence about myself, am i worthy enough of her? why every moment i feel this anxiety... worried and fear... am i have proven myself? am i good enough? am i worthy enough for her? and is she also asking the same thing? that will be settled soon...
what should i do then? God, tell me what should i do next...
as the time drawing closer, as i feel more anxiety and worried combined with anticipation and excitement... i do love her... help me to not fallen to far, so i can raise back to my feet before fallen too far...
a king of elvenland
elf of the deep forest
forest of the leaves canopy
regina is a queen
a queen of merland
merman of the deep ocean
ocean of the rainbow creatures
both of them have met
2 of so different kind
2 of so different personality
2 of so different sides
what will happen when the 2 collides
will the universe shakes in fear
or dance in harmony
that will be decided... soon
heaven have destined this encounter
the gift of our sweet encounter
wingsbeat of butterflies
and sweet scent of bellflower
the two swords have crossed
the two paths have combined
the two strings of fate have tied
i hope those two won't come apart
P.S. this is when i feel not that confidence about myself, am i worthy enough of her? why every moment i feel this anxiety... worried and fear... am i have proven myself? am i good enough? am i worthy enough for her? and is she also asking the same thing? that will be settled soon...
what should i do then? God, tell me what should i do next...
as the time drawing closer, as i feel more anxiety and worried combined with anticipation and excitement... i do love her... help me to not fallen to far, so i can raise back to my feet before fallen too far...
08 January 2009
the worst of all
the worst of all world
gather in one spot
the worst of all school
gather in my class
the most cunning
the most lazy
the most stupid
and the most dirty
all of them are gather in my class
and i must make them into something
something to be proud of
God, help me to
P.S. Wali kelas ITC!!!! semoga bisa deh membuat ITC jadi better, God, Help ya!!!
gather in one spot
the worst of all school
gather in my class
the most cunning
the most lazy
the most stupid
and the most dirty
all of them are gather in my class
and i must make them into something
something to be proud of
God, help me to
P.S. Wali kelas ITC!!!! semoga bisa deh membuat ITC jadi better, God, Help ya!!!
07 January 2009
Sleepsong
Lay down your head and I'll sing you a lullaby
Back to the years of loo-li lai-lay
And I'll sing you to sleep and I'll sing you tomorrow
Bless you with love for the road that you go
May there always be angels to watch over you
To guide you each step of the way
To guard you and keep you safe from all harm
Loo-li, loo-li, lai-lay
May you sail far to the far fields of fortune
With diamonds and pearls at your head and your feet
And may you need never to banish misfortune
May you find kindness in all that you meet
May there always be angels to watch over you
To guide you each step of the way
To guard you and keep you safe from all harm
Loo-li, loo-li, lai-lay
May you bring love and may you bring happiness
Be loved in return to the end of your days
Now fall off to sleep, I'm not meaning to keep you
I'll just sit for a while and sing loo-li, lai-lay
May there always be angels to watch over you
To guide you each step of the way
To guard you and keep you safe from all harm
Loo-li, loo-li, lai-lay
P.S. taken from secret garden song, Sleepsong. a very beautiful song... i might do the same to my child one day too... a very pleasant thought, but it's might still far in the future, so let's get back to work...
Back to the years of loo-li lai-lay
And I'll sing you to sleep and I'll sing you tomorrow
Bless you with love for the road that you go
May there always be angels to watch over you
To guide you each step of the way
To guard you and keep you safe from all harm
Loo-li, loo-li, lai-lay
May you sail far to the far fields of fortune
With diamonds and pearls at your head and your feet
And may you need never to banish misfortune
May you find kindness in all that you meet
May there always be angels to watch over you
To guide you each step of the way
To guard you and keep you safe from all harm
Loo-li, loo-li, lai-lay
May you bring love and may you bring happiness
Be loved in return to the end of your days
Now fall off to sleep, I'm not meaning to keep you
I'll just sit for a while and sing loo-li, lai-lay
May there always be angels to watch over you
To guide you each step of the way
To guard you and keep you safe from all harm
Loo-li, loo-li, lai-lay
P.S. taken from secret garden song, Sleepsong. a very beautiful song... i might do the same to my child one day too... a very pleasant thought, but it's might still far in the future, so let's get back to work...
05 January 2009
back to rumbling
the rest time is over
the bliss of peace is done
the break of nothingness is over
the moment of void is done
now we all shall return to battle
return to the battle of wits and sweats
return to eternal battle inside us
battle between our dedication and our needs
the battle is never ended
if we still alive
but it will ended
if we choose to run
whatever might happen
i will not run
i might switch faction
but i will not run
in the end
it's just a battle between us
a battle to rumble our children
to be better than all of us
P.S. teaching in the beginning of the year, it smell good, i hope i can smell the same thing till the end of my life
the bliss of peace is done
the break of nothingness is over
the moment of void is done
now we all shall return to battle
return to the battle of wits and sweats
return to eternal battle inside us
battle between our dedication and our needs
the battle is never ended
if we still alive
but it will ended
if we choose to run
whatever might happen
i will not run
i might switch faction
but i will not run
in the end
it's just a battle between us
a battle to rumble our children
to be better than all of us
P.S. teaching in the beginning of the year, it smell good, i hope i can smell the same thing till the end of my life
03 January 2009
my wishes of the year
this year are different from other year
the previous year seems so childish for me now
all my aspirations seems useless and fruitless
i have now seen myself in different glasses
for me in the past, my own enjoyment is my top priority
for now, it's seems create my own egoism
nurture my own selfishness
and i do hate me sometime because of it
for me in the past, achieving the best grade is my dreams
but after i achieve it, i can see that it doesn't bring much
it's your work that matter
it's your fruits of labor that make i satisfied
for me in the past, gathering fortune and money seems tempting
but for me now, after seeing ow ugly someone who lust on money
i put money behind all other important matters
i believe God will not let me suffer if i keep working
i am now aspire only to be a good man
a good husband to whoever my future wife will be
a good father to whoever my children will be
a good man for my society and God's eye
i am now aspire to be a good teacher
not faltered by economic temptation
not weakened because of lost of power
not downed beacuse of failures
i am now aspire to be mature
and forget my childish behaviours
i am now aspire to be man to looked up to
not because of everything but myself as channel of God
and finally, i also have found the woman i admire
i only hope that i am worthy of her
and i hope God truly see her as my equal
as i never feel this feeling with other.
this is the end of my little prayer
in the name of the Father
the Son and the Holy Spirit
Amen...
P.S. hope God grant my aspiration and my future, i give all of mine to your bidding and use me as you wish to bring your glory through me. and for my last wish, if you really not see it with your plan, i shall comply then...
the previous year seems so childish for me now
all my aspirations seems useless and fruitless
i have now seen myself in different glasses
for me in the past, my own enjoyment is my top priority
for now, it's seems create my own egoism
nurture my own selfishness
and i do hate me sometime because of it
for me in the past, achieving the best grade is my dreams
but after i achieve it, i can see that it doesn't bring much
it's your work that matter
it's your fruits of labor that make i satisfied
for me in the past, gathering fortune and money seems tempting
but for me now, after seeing ow ugly someone who lust on money
i put money behind all other important matters
i believe God will not let me suffer if i keep working
i am now aspire only to be a good man
a good husband to whoever my future wife will be
a good father to whoever my children will be
a good man for my society and God's eye
i am now aspire to be a good teacher
not faltered by economic temptation
not weakened because of lost of power
not downed beacuse of failures
i am now aspire to be mature
and forget my childish behaviours
i am now aspire to be man to looked up to
not because of everything but myself as channel of God
and finally, i also have found the woman i admire
i only hope that i am worthy of her
and i hope God truly see her as my equal
as i never feel this feeling with other.
this is the end of my little prayer
in the name of the Father
the Son and the Holy Spirit
Amen...
P.S. hope God grant my aspiration and my future, i give all of mine to your bidding and use me as you wish to bring your glory through me. and for my last wish, if you really not see it with your plan, i shall comply then...
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