i bet everything

i bet my time to all of them
although some do not worth my time
although sometime i feel i want some rest
although sometime i want to vomit at their disgusting attitude
but i still bet my time to all of them

i bet my hope to all of them
although almost none reach my expectation
although one of them almost crack open
although half of them make me scare out of my skin
but i still bet my hope to all of them

i bet my comfort to all of them
my anxiety drive my on my thumb all the time
my fear make me jumpy at every corner
my anger almost make me lose control
but i still bet my comfort to all of them

dear God, help them
help them all
none must failed
i don't care who or what they were
just... save them all

am i worry for nothing

am i worry for nothing?
since you all think nothing of it

am i a fool to keep asking you to study?
since you don't even care

should i mad at you guys?
complaining and pestering without knowing the real deal?

should i be silent?
so you have more time to learn

or should i always give order?
so you will be constantly reminded?

should i leave you all?
so you can fall into your misery alone

or should i stick you guys?
so i can comfort you when all is lost

no matter how hard i want you all to pass
all i can do hope for it

whether you care for yourself or not
is no longer concern me

am i so over about you guys?
so i can leave you to live or die as you wishes

do i even need to care?
since you don't even care